Well hello kiddies, here we are in a new venue, fuck that old one … I’m only beginning to settle in over here, but I have already made some wonderful friends over here. People that are really kind, the type of people that bring a smile to your face when you see them, and a little frown when they leave for the night. They funny thing is though they are scattered all over the world. I haven’t known them that long but I get the feeling they understand me a hell of a lot more then the people who I conceder friends that only live a few miles from me. Now isn’t that pretty fucked up. The people here, if they see you are feeling down and out, they actually take the time and make an effort to try and help cheer you up. Can I say that about the friends I have that live around here? No really I cant sure if its convenient for them they may, but in all realality, they’ll just ignore it and think it’s a passing phase. Witch you know it might be just a passing phase, if they would take the time and help yah through it, instead of just letting it build up inside the person. You know the experts have classified cyberspace as fantasy, witch sure it can be, but it can also more reality then some of the relationships we have off line. Some people put on a disguise for the world, letting others see what they want to see. Don’t believe it, try this some time, next time you see a stranger smile, examine it, look in to the persons eyes, do they truly look happy or is it just a front there putting on because society says they should be happy in that particular situation. I bet 9 times out of 10 you will find that it is just a front. But not lets look at some one happy online, it doesn’t matter the situation, because in all honesty that person on the other side of the computer screen is probably by themselves, there is no need to put on the front they do in there day to day grinds … because there’s no one around to have to. So now with this information in hand is cyberspace really that much fantasy? Sure you can slay a dragon online, be a vampire, or really anything you can dream of, but lets go beyond that, deep to the heart of it the emotions. From my experience the emotions you find online are going to be 100% genuine, and not fake. Why is that? Why cant people show there true emotions in there day to day grind? Well its because the emotions there feeling do not follow societies norm, and there afraid of not fitting in, so they put on there front ….
So in closing kiddies, I want to say thank you to some very wonderful people I have just met in the last what is it week and a half I think. You people keep me trudging through this shattered mess I call my life.
