so i lay here on this bed
thinking about the things that were said
the pain and sorrow fill my head
and i can't help but think
"where did i go wrong?"
it's perfect silence
no one will complain
if i scream out loud
and scream in pain
i can't live without you
i can't live in shame
i play with the hem of my shirt
wondering if you'll walk through the door
to tell me that everything's ok
and that you love me even more
i stare off into the distance
and wonder what it would be
if you forgave me for what i did
if you forgave me for being me
but i'll never know the answer
i'll never know what's going through your head
do you forgive me
or do you wish me dead?
tears form
and i cannot hold back
the quiet whimpers
that fill the room
i ruined my life myself
i did not need your help
i don't need you to return
but then again
maybe i do
maybe i need you
forever in my life
forever in my mind
is that where you'll live
forever in shame?
