Guillermo's blog: "Works"

The harder I try to walk away from my past. My past self, my past events, the harder I fall.  I have tried to be positive and kind and full of what so many ignorantly worship, the light. While it is uncomfortable I make the effort to be what I have not been.

The pain goes, as does all pain, yet the only lesson that prevails and repeats itself is rather simple. Do not live in lies.  Living as if the world were a kind place and full of love and caring is a lie.  Living as if hope will protect your wishes is foolish.

Having hope is not foolish so long as it does not lead you to being lazy about achieving or realizing those wants and wishes.  Living as if life were anything but unbiased is ignorant.  Life does not feel any spite nor pride towards any living creature.

I missed one wing for a long time and I thank the beautiful young lady that restored it. Our time together was fun and I will hold those moments dearly.  I had my one desire granted, to have it taken away. That time I too will hold dearly.

So I have spread my wings of Light and Darkness. I payed  the price for retracting shields and chains that bound.  I have paid the price for ending agreements.  The protection once offered is gone.  As someone I hold close to the dark heart I am showed me I will seal dreams and memories. 

My memory will suffice and soon, as has always been the case, I will be a shadow.  May my lost family live well and happy. I will not be watching. Not this time will I suffer.