For the past two years
Ive lived in sorts, a dream state
Now upon awakening,
I no longer believe i can deal with reality
The pain all to real
The sorrowful lead weight in my chest
"Im trapped in this world lonely and fading heart broke and waiting"
There are oh so many people with no complications in there lives
Not one of them has had to wipe blood from the walls
Not one of them has had to wipe there own blood from the floors
Not one of them has had to lie about things to people they know
I know there are other people who deal with these,
Horrid things from my nightmares
But whom do I turn to
When all the Light from my eyes has faded?
When all the weight in my chest has caused it to implode
Rendering it numb?
There are so many questions without any answers
The passion drained from my eyes
The feeling drained from my soul
The meaning drained from my life,
Everyone thinks they know you so well
That they know when you lie
That they know when you are sad
That they know when you need something
My 'Family' I've lived with for nearly 17 years old does not know one danm thing about me
I no longer want to be in there presence
I no longer want to be a part of they're 'Family'
I no longer want anything to do with them
I want to be unattached
