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What are you waiting for?
You give yourself hope and you think. Why try. Same thing always happens. Just leave me be. Just let me alone. Let me be with my thoughts, emotions. Feel for me, but then dont. Feel for me for i will be ok. Dont feel for me because why would you. What is there to do when all fears have gone and theres nothing? But, it really is never just nothing. Its the constentness of it. The constent repeat of the same thing over and over again. You think you learn, but heres the funny thing lol, you really never do learn do you. Pain. Is that way how you find true love it, or is true that you have to know true pain before you could know happieness. Human emotion. What is it? Is it our souls telling us that pain is emotion. But back to what is emotion? Why have it. I mean i have great love for my childen and that is unconditional. But that love is different. That emotion is different. When can you believe somone? They can tell you all day long you can, but can you, or is it you just put to much thought behind it. Can you have some one come and take an emotion from you. Take it away for ever. Ill be fine with it. Or would that just make me the true bitch i can be. But would that be so bad? Wouldnt hurt anymore. Or should i be like my granny and find them and thats it? Or be like my mama and be alone. Consume myself in everything elese. That should take my mind away, dont ya think? But the only thing i can say.......... its my falt.
