today i relapsed again it,s been hard for me to find my self and not to fall in to darknes again i fight it so it does not happen again
all the scars on my heart are giving me problems i need to let go of the past and move on and learn to heal and let my self feel
but my problem is that my past has a hold on and it will not give up its control so i take control and learn to forgive but not forgot
and look forward to the future and find my self again and i know have good friend who care about me and understand how i feel
and will always help me with life there are my online family and i love them all and i meet a new friend we just started talking but
she is very sweet and great listener