I'm so tired of fighting over the ex-factor. My ex & I spent a little over a year together (4 months of it fun, the rest, miserable). And it has taken since last October for me to be able to talk to him, without being filled with hate. And for me that's a rather big deal...but the best part is knowing that we were never right for each other, & that the past is irrelevant. This goes not only for my ex... but for others ex's as well. Some people need to be left in the past forever. While I understand some circumstances are different...Some things that people have done/said are unforgiveable, & should they ever be so lucky as to have my forgiveness, I will do my best to forget them & my best to never forget just how wrong they truly did me. I would honestly never wish bad things upon them, but I certainly will not wish them well.
I recently just enrolled in a Medical Records/Coding course online. I think this is one of the best decisions I have made in regards to a career in a really long time. I was so tired of going to work day in & day out at a job where I was constantly on edge & deep down, I knew I didn't fit in. I have a much more caring personality than a lot of those people there. They're only in it for the money aspect. It broke my heart to see how unconcerned they were about the actual customer, but cared more about how much money they were gonna make. Or that they cared more about what they were gonna do that night, and taking another call would cut into their plans. Funny thing, I thought in a customer oriented business, A) the customer was always right & B) the customers needs come before our own.
I have finally gotten to a point in my life where I can accept myself for exactly who I am. I have all the people in my life... past & present to thank for that. I most certainly wouldn't change a thing and I love everyone who has come into my life for being so different. I have to say though, my Kater~bee has really pulled me through everything since July 13th of 2005. She is the kind of friend that you can only really ever dream of finding (much less keeping) & definitely the kind that once you have that bond with her, it will last a life time. Carlene, Deni, Jess & Stacy... you will ALWAYS be my "hometown girls." We don't see each other as often as we should but I still love you and I miss the good old days when we used to hang out all of the time. My point is I guess that friends have changed and broke apart, and some have grown closer and some people have replaced others. It hurts to watch some of us grow apart and watch others move in to take our place, but in reality they can never take your place.
