ShadowWalker's blog: "Randomness"

And this is why military personnel have a hard time with relationships so often. Even a fu-engagement just got fucked up bc I got called into work with no way to contact her. Sorry Beautiful Angel!!! :(

The years have come and gone by Each one faster as time seems to fly Each new year that comes we say Today is going to be a new day I'll change my life I'll do it right Lose that weight fight that fight New year resolution mean shit Who's ever done when they said it? Same old promise every year done And never a goal not even one Mine is simple and what I'll do I do me. You do you. Don't judge my life nor ask for change Don't expect things outta your range I like my life just as it is So get on out and mind your biz!

All the voices in my head, they are driving me insane Twisted, craven thoughts drift in the vacuum of my brain Shut up all the voices, please just take them all away They drive away my sanity and block out the light of day You could not understand my pain you cannot comprehend The agony, the masochistic joy these voices always rend The chaos is desirable, I hate it but I don't Rid me of it if you can, because I can't. I won't. The voices won't release me, not until I'm dead And so this is my fairwell as I put a bullet in my head

You know more about me than any other friend When I need a shoulder, on you I can depend You're more precious to me than any sum of gold I will always love you, even when we're old I know people may mock me Why love and serve just one But after all you've taught me Loving you is fun You mean more to me than all that I possess My love for you is so strong. How can I digress? Love grows stronger daily, service becomes more real Thank you for showing me this is how love feels You're the one who taught me how to really love And I'm always thankful for this gift from above

My friend is dead, the girls I love will never be quite mine, But in my head and in my words I'll tell the world I'm fine I'm fucked up and I'm insecure I am neurotic too I'm a little bit emotional, but I'm still "fine" to you You can't see within my mind, I've crossed the narrow line But all the world will ever see is a smiling "I'm fine."

Do unto others as you would have them do unto you That is the golden rule You took me in, toyed with my heart, discard it when you're through How could you be so cruel? You claimed that you loved me, I took it in And then you let me fall I let you lead me, that's my cardinal sin I let you take my all And now that it's over, I see the true you You deceitful beastly boar And now that it's over, it's time that you knew I'm not yours any more

Here we go, I'm on my way This is my time, this is the day I've practiced hard, I've practiced long I know the notes, I know the song, And here I am, it's my solo Wish me luck, cause here I go Oh, sweet Lord, was that my voice? It must have been. I have no choice, I must sing on, the show comes first Though that first note was my worst Praise God! My voice is now alright I finish my solo and go on with the night Our song is done, the people stand One by one they say I was grand They all knew I'd done it wrong, But did my best and sang the song That's what counts in this life Sing on, sing on, in times of strife

I will love who I love and not who you prescribe I will not listen to you though you jeer and jibe My heart is mine to give to any who I will Though you think me stupid, it is my choice still I love it when they hug me, run their fingers through my hair So keep your judgment to yourself, I really do not care You are not my conscience, you are not my heart Keep your opinion to yourself, in love it plays no part. I love who I want, and don't care what you say So please just take your judgment and walk the other way

my heart is breaking slowly as i watch you walk away you told me that you loved me but your words led me astray we started out as friends, became best friends and more i don't think you even realise you're the one that i adore yes you do still love me i know that that is true but the love you have for me is not the love i have for you i'm there for you forever as friends and nothing more as i help you find another and step back out that door i'm there for you to cry on, to talk to, and to hold i'm never gonna leave you even when we're both old go find the one that's meant for you what i can never be i'll help make sure he is for you so you can be happy but now i see the truth of it that you'll never be mine and shattered on the inside i hold you and say i'm fine

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