Unchained Melody's blog: "Random thoughts...(poetry)"

Laying in your bed With your pillow under my head Cool spring breeze swirls about Delivering the fresh scent of lilacs Through the open windows of your room Hours ago your alarm clock rang Removing you from my arms For work calls Though I wish you were still here Snuggled up to your chest Hearing your calming voice Whispering, “Good morning beautiful” I could lay there forever All my problems seem to fade When you are next to me For hours you will be gone Working hard If there is a job to do You will get it done Because that is how you are Looking at the clock on your headboard Counting the hours until you return For when you walk back through the door A smile will be shown Bright across my face Happy to be with you again To feel the love you have for me By the way you bathe me in such sweet delicate words The gentle touch of your hand across my cheek Tells me I’m no longer dreaming For your time away has ended I lay smiling in your bed Where you slipped out of my arms Many hours ago I touch your hand Pull you close Kiss your lips Then softly whisper “I missed you” written by: Melody 6-13-07

Try Try Again... Five dollars in my pocket When I needed ten Recipe calls for 3 eggs I have a dozen A month past Expiration Rent is 5 days late But a smile you will find Firmly planted on my face I may not have everything But I have more than I deserve I am not a super model Nor Picasso or Poe I write what I feel And Paint what I see Far from perfection With either But I try And I will keep trying With each day Comes knowledge And gained wisdom From all the years Of living life Without knowing Love Today I am in a better place Broke indeed But not busted No longer shattered Whole once again To try And to continue each day As success Is my destiny Because I found love Inside me Written by Melody 5/28/07

Sound of Silence Do you hear that The echoing of nothing So ear piercing It can shatter glass with its voice Cuts to your soul Makes you listen Days it is priceless What one wouldn’t give For a second of silence In this chaotic world With traffic Phones Barking dogs Kids at play Noise of the world Spinning away Embrace the peaceful sound Soak into its existence Let it consume you Before Ring, ring… It vanishes for another day. Written by Melody 5-28-07

Whys of the World... Soft breeze drifts down Birds chirping a soft calming sound Thoughts fill my mind So many changes in the last 7 months I was once a wife Now someone else has taken that role Single and alone Searching to find myself Answers in my morning toast Wheat or white Butter or Jam Why not both These are the biggest decisions I am capable of making Anything bigger Clueless Don’t ask me important things Don’t make me think too much Some days It is hard to even say my name Puddle of water Become my crystal ball Foretell my future Explain to us all Tell me what I need to know To remain a part of the daily show Unwind this ball of mistakes Guide me to a peaceful place Where I can be me No longer the past in my way Nothing but a brighter day Sunlight cast the reflection Show me the correct direction Paint the road less traveled Glow in brilliance to catch my eye So no longer will I have to ask The dreaded question of … Why Why must things you hope for Never happen Why must happy moments End Why must the sunlight fade Why must your heart break In order to be healed Why must we fight for freedom To keep peace within Maybe tomorrow I will find the answers Maybe tomorrow All I seek Will be written In my reflection When I look at you Written by Melody 5-28-07

THE CHORUS OF CHAOS In my palm I have held the world I’ve touched the mountains and it’s streams Cool water seeps through my fingers And warm blood flows in my veins Many questions go unanswered And answers unexplained With all the goodness and glory There too is darkness and sin One must search through the black To find the beauty deep within Trace the lines upon my hand See the aging of my skin Feel the weight upon my shoulders From gravity holding me down Though life keeps on spinning Silently without a sound Echoing the haunting noise Silence heard by the lonely Voices by the insane Two hands constantly grip The chaos of the crowd Dance into the shadows Sink into the ground Believe what drifts your way Soon will turn around What plagued your nights with sorrow Will fade like last years leaves No longer cluttering the lawn Without leftovers for tomorrow Gone with a close of the door Click the switch, lights out Nothing, there is no more As the sunsets, a new day comes With brilliant colors of the dawn Sings the chorus of the choir A most heavenly song Somewhere on this earth There is a place we all belong… Written by Melody 5-14-07

Dedicated to “Drama” Save the drama For the dead llama His ears will always listen To your constant whine Fed him your shit Let him be your swine I don’t have the patience Please stop wasting my time So save the drama For the llama Go cry to the next guy Let him be your shoulder To soak up your sorrow That will still be here tomorrow Constantly searching for attention Sympathy is your game Just letting you know I find your style lame So give it up girl Stop trying to be the focus Go find yourself a "Genie" To cure with hokus pokus Growing deaf to the noise Chitter, chat, plea Open your eyes Drama is all you ever share So save the drama For the dead llama As he is the ONLY one Who will ever care… Written by: Melody 5-11-07

BEST FRIENDS Roses for me For all to see Four dozen Pink, purple and peach Yellow too Sent from my best friend How blessed I am to know you A kind man indeed Rose buds and blossoms Mother Nature’s perfection A powerful perfume The scent for the soul So beautiful they are Divine to the eye But now everyone knows Just how lucky I am And the reason why… You are my best friend Thank you for always being there… I love you! Written by: Melody 5-11-07

TODAY Cool morning dew covers the ground Chirping birds…the only sound The sun shines bright Darkness gone…no longer in sight Seems so perfect Everything just right My head I rest For my future is the test Friends I have known No longer around Though they reside In the same small town Silence is heard When my tears stream down Who do you trust What do you believe Gossip and lies How much is real Though the next person thinks My skin must be made of steel Do they not know Surely they realize I will hear Judgment day will come For all I will stand The Devil will fall Into his new wife’s arms I hope she will be there To catch him And all of his shit When he gives it out His punching bag no longer Though I am still under his grip But for now to be the better I constantly bite my lip Though I try to say what I feel Never allowed He must have the last say The things I think I will express some day When it is the right time He thinks he has won This childish game Trying to hurt me still What he doesn’t realize is I will survive for it is…God’s Will Years of pain are on your hands Maybe you will become a better man I pray you do for the new one in your life If you don’t I already shed a tear For your future wife You have always been Full of lies I will do it tomorrow No plans Dreams long since gone No longer I wait My future is my canvas I dip my brush Into the paint Only beauty Will be seen For God Guides my hand Showing me the right way To find happiness Today… Written by Melody 4-22-07

I received my divorce papers in the mail yesterday. This small paper, 2 pages...is the end to 20 years. I was a child 20 years ago. Met my husband when I was 17. I am here to tell you, I was much too young and my brain too small to handle things that were put before me. I reflected back the memories, some good, those however, very few are hard to remember from the past many years of hell which clouds them. I now must decide what to do with the days I have left in my life. I will begin by attaching the divorce paper to the end of the first chapter of my unwritten novel. The first chapter will be short and painful, not only for the author but those who will ever get the pleasure of reading, but getting through the first chapter and understanding and caring enough to continue are the readers I am currently in search of. The chapters that follow I hope you will find captivating, passionate and heart touching...but when you finally lay the book down, remembering the book's author, is the greatest reward. ~Melody

You… A smile is on my face That has yet to leave Who could have thought No one would believe That words typed late at night Would eventually Place you in my sight When you pulled up the drive I was so nervous Sitting across from you Sharing a quick glance So happy we took this chance Conversation flowed Through dinner Dessert was so good Though I couldn’t think Of anything but how you would taste Imagining your lips to mine Watching you Wishing I was the wine You were sipping If you could have read my mind My face would have glowed red After dinner you brought me home Held me in your arms Completely into you You kissed me It was like tasting the sun So hot... Like the first summer’s day Basking in it’s ray My flesh glistened As we danced across my floor Sade playing softly Then we kissed once more I soaked up the sun Felt it pour into my soul Seeping deep I opened my eyes Seeing pure joy Passion I have never felt before I now have an understanding Why there is a glow that Surrounds you Written by Melody 4-10-07