REPO's blog: "RANDOM THOUGHTS OF A MAD MAN"

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF A MAD MAN

I WALKED THAT WALK INTO THE LIGHT. AND I DID FIND ALL IT HAD TO OFFER. HAPPINESS , LOVE ,JOY.
BUT THEN AGAIN IT WAS ALL TAKEN AWAY WITH NO REASON OR CAUSE. I HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION
THAT MY PLACE IS IN THE DARK. THE DARK IS WHERE I FEEL NO PAIN OR HURT OR UNHAPPINESS. YET I ALSO
FEEL NO LOVE OR JOY. BUT I GIVE UP ALL THE FEELINGS TO FEEL NOTHING WHY BECAUSE NOTHING CAN NOT
HURT AS BAD AS ALL THE OTHER FEELINGS HAVE CAN IT?LET ME ASK YOU A QUESTION? HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH
YOUR PAIN AND HURT. DO YOU DO LIKE ME AND BOTTLE IT UP, HIDE IT NOT ONLY FROM  THE WORLD BUT FROM YOURSELF ALSO?
HAVE YOU EVER SAT IN THE DARK AND FELT NO PAIN NO HURT NO DISTRUST? WELL UNTIL YOU DO WHY LOOK DOWN ON ME 
OR FEEL SAD FOR ME FOR IT . I SAY TRY IT . NEXT TIME YOU HURT OR ARE IN THAT BLACK CLOUD OF NOT KNOWING .
COME TO THE DARK SIT HERE  A FEW AND TELL ME HOW IT TREATED YOU. YOU NEVER KNOW YOU MAY LIKE IT . SOME ASKED
ME HOW DO I FEEL TODAY AND MY RESPONSE WAS HOLLOW . YES HOLLOW  THERE WAS NOTHING INSIDE NO JOY NO LOVE NO WARMTH ,
YET THERE WAS NO PAIN OF SUFFERING OR COLD . I FELT NOT DEAD AND NOT ALIVE  BUT NUMB . AND I BEGAN TO REALIZE THIS
NUMBNESS IS NOT THAT BAD. WHY YOU ASK? WELL SIMPLE ... NO HURT NO PAIN NO FEELINGS . IS ALOT BETTER THAN TO FEEL ALL
OF THAT RIGHT. WHEN YOU ARE IN PAIN DO YOU LIKE THAT NUMB FEELING  THAT MAKES IT SEEM TO HAVE GONE AWAY? BUT THATS
JUST IT YOU SAY THAT FEELING COMES BACK  WELL RIGHT BUT EVENTUALLY IT GOES AWAY FOR GOOD .YET ONLY TO BE BROUGHT BACK
BY SOME REMEMBERANCE  OR BUMP OR REACURANCE  . AM I CORRECT. BUT YET WHILE IT DIDNT HURT IT FELT GREAT DIDNT IT. SO COME
JOIN ME IN MY DARK WORLD . STAY A WHILE TELL ME HOW YOU LIKE IT .....