Lord Dark Celt Bard Emeritus's blog: "Random Babblings from an Unsound Mind."

Aight here's the deal.I'm lazy, I know some wanna drop me on here.Ok, shiny.If ya want, leave me a message here, on FuBar or over messenger if doing so.Helps separate the wheat from the chaff.

Back to sanity.And hate.Mmmm.There's a certain nameless clique at a certain nameless lounge.Anyone who knows me, knows wot I mean.The Ignorers.I want vengeance.Ideally, I'd like to cut each of their lying 2-faced scumbag faces off with a scalpel.But that's impractical.I can't let this hatred go.It poisons me.But just walking away isn't a option, I swore an oath.What does one do, when the ones who one swore an oath to can't/won't hold their ends up, hmmmm?I can't sit back and let karma handle this.Even though it is.It's not enough.I fester with hatred. I know some of them will read this.Make it known.Plain and simple I want a ban.And I want it known to me that I am indeed banned.I can thus move on with life. And though it saddens me, I from here on in, do not wish to associate with ANY from this clique , and you fucking KNOW who you are.If you drove off my friends, or won't speak to me, fuck off.Otherwise, you know how ta find me.Same deal as the ban.Cut me from friends please, clique whores, and notify me so I can do the same. Sorry it had to be like this.I truly am.I tried, and tried, to avoid this.And this is better than a screaming rant in that "metal" lounge(not even gonna discuss how hypocritical THAT is, lmao).But I will NOT go even more insane over people who, frankly, aren't worth the shit in my bowels.One can only be nice for so long.And one can't fight an invisible enemy, one who will not even acknowledge their enmity.I'm not a great man.Hardly so.But even the lowest deserve basic respect and dignity.I will not have mine stolen from me any longer. Sorry it had to degenerate to this.And yes, I accept the probability I AM indeed insane.But even so, were that the case, one could simply TALK to me.Bloody fuckfire.I talk to people.It's NOT hard.As I used ta say, "enough jibba-jabba." Let the Lord of Chaos reign.

The gist of it is, I'm bumming a page from Kevin Nash;pay me to be here or sod off.Everyone thinks I'm "cool"?Well, it comes with a fee now.Simple as that.Don't like it?Insert various sharp objects into yer orifices.Have a nice day?Moo.Waffles.

Just like it says in te subject line.I need a new place to hang, one where my insane ass can actually feel welcome while this thing takes me.Make me an offer, lol.And no, I'm not trolling for bribes;just a place where I'm not the perpetual odd man out.Ya know?

Ok, lol.Not like any of you ever read these, but fer those that do, the madness is getting worse.I'm finding inability to concentrate, I'm enraged virtually all the time underneath my placid/goofy mask, and it feels like reality ITSELF is disintegrating.I'm getting scared.No, you can't help, lmao;if my shrink can't, all that'd happen is the insanity would infect YOU, too.This ain't emo;I'm not gonna off myself, cut myself, or any other stupidity.Just saying, if I fall through the hole in reality, you'll know.I care about, and respect deeply, all my friends and family, so I just figured it'd be honourable to let you all know what exactly is happening.So when the weird shit happens, perhaps you can avoid it.Sorry I failed you, everyone.

Sometimes I truly do wonder.This is gonna be a ramble so don't expect art, lol.This..is I dunno what it is.An old man venting, I guess.I'm in questioning mode, ya see.Questioning everything.Like, why be somewhere I'm not happy?Why do things I don't truly want to?Drawing a paycheck's one thing, it's the free time I must use, and use wisely.Frankly..I'm kinda tired of making everyone happy and being unable to BE happy.Kinda feel shafted.Meh, that's life, right?

Where do I go, From here? Utterly lost, disjointed, I don't even have the strength left to hate. Words are less than useless; Yet I try to rationalize this Hell. I wish I could be some little emo kid, Where my only problems are with conforming like a lemming. But I can't. Once yer eyes are Open, you can't unsee the Blackness. You can't block the screams. And you damn well can't NOT feel Death's cold, bony, yet reassuring grip. I've done some bad things in my time here. But even the worst murderer doesn't suffer this way. Problem is, I have both mind, and morals. Neither are anything but liability here. And worse, to quote Eminem(Gods help me), "There's a million other motherfuckers JUST LIKE ME." What have you let this world become, my ancestors? Why have you let the Earth die? That's why we're all crazy, you see... It's a survival mechanism. An unpleasent one, admittedly. Though I for one, am tired of surviving. I want my world back. I want my friends back. I want SANITY back! But, since those are impossible..I'll settle for death, lol. Just a matter of time, lol. Ain't the death that stings.. It's the acceptance that nomatter what, you're doomed.And likely damned. I think..I've accepted.Sorry gang. For everything.

I dunno.Things are moving, Here in the Blackness. Things with teeth. Being eaten away. This is half-disjointed ramble, Half goodbye, one could say. The irony is we can damn near impeach, Yet we can't overthrow bloody-handed Tyrant God? I'm tired of this life. I demand a refund. Just one thing I ask.. Well, two, really. Remember me, as I was. And..don't be suprised where my Tao leads.

Ok, I dunno what's up with this re-rate stuff, but if yer kind enough ta re-rate me, I'll return the favor. Same deal with fan/add.Bear with me, lol, y'all know by now I'm a burnout. :P

The world moves on, It is ka. To begin again one must Break. The damn room at the top, is EMPTY! Are we damned by default, those of us whom would unmake? Or are we nascent Gods, made to start the cycle again? Am I devil then? I just want a new world. I'm sick of evil, even my own. So come, then, Gunslingers There's more and more like me everyday. We WILL Break the Tower... And create new life, from the ashes. (much love to Stephen King for giving me such a rich setting to dabble with. If you like this, I recommend his Dark Tower series,and the bajillion or so tie-ins.)