AnonyMiss's blog: "Ramdom Thoughts..."

subject: Thoughts spinning in my head... post date: 2008-02-27 19:47:26 views: 3 comments: 0 ratings: 0 As the tears roll down my cheeks.. They take with them new momories never to be made.. I took my wall down & shattered my resistance.. Only to be alluded to false promises.. Promises of a future that held tightly to dreams.. Dreams of trust..love..and above all, utter happiness.. Your words I embraced to my heart.. The feelings went deeper than any beofore you.. You found my bitterly cold heart & warmed it.. Only to shatter into smaller peices.. I trusted you with my weaknesses.. But it seems as though, I was a game to you.. You, a new brighter light that radiated in me.. Brighter than the brightest star filled night.. Why did you let me go...? Making me lose sight that in this life.. Happiness is nothing more than an eluded dream.. That in the end never comes true...

To pity those that know her not Is helped by regret... That those who kow her, know her best.. The nearer they get... ~Dickenson~

Mad Girl's Love Song By Sylvia Plath "I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my lids and all is born again. (I think I made you up inside my head.) The stars go waltzing out in blue and red, And arbitrary blackness gallops in: I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead. I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane. (I think I made you up inside my head.) God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade: Exit seraphim and Satan's men: I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead. I fancied you'd return the way you said, But I grow old and I forget your name. (I think I made you up inside my head.) I should have loved a thunderbird instead; At least when spring comes they roar back again. I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead. (I think I made you up inside my head.)"

A Dream Within A Dream Take this kiss upon the brow! And, in parting from you now, Thus much let me avow- You are not wrong, who deem That my days have been a dream; Yet if hope has flown away In a night, or in a day, In a vision, or in none, Is it therefore the less gone? All that we see or seem Is but a dream within a dream. I stand amid the roar Of a surf-tormented shore, And I hold within my hand Grains of the golden sand- How few! yet how they creep Through my fingers to the deep, While I weep- while I weep! O God! can I not grasp Them with a tighter clasp? O God! can I not save One from the pitiless wave? Is all that we see or seem But a dream within a dream? Edgar Allan Poe

Hearts make no sound as they break.... Quiet as an empty grave...

Wildness fueled by fantasy- Souls burning with madness- Embracing what "could" become- Self destructing furture unknown- Intertwining lives as we go- Our hearts producing our thoughts- Brains unable to function properly-Signs still not visible- Craving unity we continue down- Letting the electricity flow through us- Our first thought into reality; bright and vivid- Desire blazing into the depths of humanity- Serinity and peace cloud our judgement- Our faoundation begins to weaken- Fire burning out of control- Unstable ground comes out from under us- We begin to slip on our own remains- As I stumble the fire catches me- I feel it's burn as my flesh smolders... Struggling within myself to survive- Waiting for the blaze to dissipate- Waiting for our fire to burn cold- The fires insanity, like my own- Still burns like the sun- Seeing you in the shadows- Reaching for your sweet embrace- Help me from the Hell I created- Instead, I see you turn your back... Watching you run...into the dark- Leaving me..to burn..in our fire.....

Call it a methodical dream.... Call it life... Then again, why is "life" "such a great thing"?..... When all you do, while living it is suffer... You slowly sometimes quickly see yourself... Coming apart at the seams....!!! No one hears...your inner screams... HELP ME!..FREE ME!..SAVE ME!!!!!!..... Then again, no one really cares... So, all your emotions you learn..to buffer... Why is life so cold and uncaring?... What has people and the world in it come to...? Everything, is one big obstacle.. Always something up ahead.... Never anything positive..jus harder times.. My world....is Lost...Empty...Cold....& Bare... Hopefully one day, my ravaged soul.... Will finally be free from all pain and dispair....

Some of my thoughts... Breath me in like tired wind- That crosses oceans and rivers- I'll breath you in like smoke from a fire- The two are never severed- Look at me, I look at you- I see the things you've been through- I know your pain- It too, is just like mine- I've been through all of it too- If you could live in my flesh for a day, You'd wish that you were gone- And if someday I disaapear- I'll know my life was for none- I can't imagine what happiness is- Because,I have never felt it for to long- And, I can't begin to know true joy- Because, I've never lived it- I'll never know all the answers- If I never ask the questions- But, if I ask I only fail- And face my friend, rejection---So it never ends! Because, it never began- And, all that, is truth in the matter- In life or death, If I had the choice-- I'd chose the latter.......

Secure you mind to the world of diversity- Tolerate only what is considered "normal"- Pass your judgement down upon me- Since my acts are not measured formal- Wear YOUR insureities on youe sleeve- Torment all you don't recogonize- What verdict will be sentenced- Through the silence of your eyes- Condem the entrance of loathing- Bypass the corridors filled with dust- Through the shallowness of your mind- Left here with nothing but disqust- You the illistration of perfection- Seal your eyes to the confines of your brain- Distinguish nothing, imprision intellect- Because your actions define the same- Gaze through the holes of black- Witness the pleasure, observe the unique- Inside your feeble closed interior- Embrace the splender, examine the mistique- Leave mind deadening hatred aside- Escape the confines of your head- Throw away your shallow thinking!- Or, chose to leave your mind dead- Ice cold blood pumping through- Creating merciless misery in time- Shrouded by ingnorance and deceit- The unspeakeable to you...just a crime-