It rained here all day today. I took my son out and walked in it. We jumped in puddles and kicked water at one another. My son never seen the tears that fell freely from me. The rained cried with me today. Allowed me to weep in public for all to see, yet no one knew. It was if the sky's opened up for me today to allow me to cry unnoticed. To let me be myself without fear of sympathy or ignorance.
I am not afraid to cry yet at times I hold it in and try and be brave. I do this for my son, my family. I act as if all is well. In reality I feel completely alone and withdrawn. Feel as if I am screaming yet no sound come out. I scream someone hear me! Someone love me! Someone save me! Yet there is no sound! Today I cried and the rain cried with me. When no one else listens God is always there. Today I was carried in the rain and the heaven cried with me and allowed me to be silently heard.
