fubar

I roam the the shadows looking for someone, but i can't seem to find her where i am looking... Maybe what I desire does not exist in the shadow lands where i stand... I need only to whisper her name, an she will find me an bring me to where she dwells... So I whisper the name i want, but i don't hear a thing not even a mouse... Does this person even hear me calling out, or is it that I have faded away into this darkness, this nothingness, as if i have never belonged to this world... Or maybe the one I whisper for is afraid or to shy to come to the dark side to get me... Perhaps, all she needs is a little light, so she can see that there is no nothingness at all, but a beautiful gardenias where I exist, that she cannot see... When i do talk to her, I will tell her things about myself... I will tell the truth but i don't tell her everything about me... Does that make me a bad person?... Does it make her want to hate me even more?... I guess I'm just a Rogue looking for a place to be, but can't find it... I am standing here all alone in the darkness, this nothingness, with the Pain i have gotten over the years... I shed these bloody tears, but does it give her fears...Nights in the shadow lands are long and cold without the warmth of her breath upon my skin. My mind sees her clear as day but she's not here. Or is she here? I don't know, but my body has just warmed, as if I was being caressed by her. Could it be only the warm wind blowing across my skin or is it her that walks in the shadows? The night breeze passes through the branches carrying whispers to me. I turn and see nothing but shadows that beckon...