Despair claws through my brain
As I try to figure out what is going on
The fear of failure is almost overwhelming
I want to succeed in what I do
I don’t know how I am going to go about it
Without looking like a flopping fish out of water
I feel like the more I try, the more I fall
Into a dark ceaseless pit of nothing
Where I will continue to fall further down
Without a way out, a way to escape it
I ponder the feelings I have right now
Like I am incomplete, a failure, an idiot who can’t finish anything
These seem stupid now to sit and ponder on
When I can go out and do something about them
I will continue the search to find what will complete me
Knowing that a failure is one who stops trying,
I will continue to try and succeed
Being called an idiot is just something a person says to get to me
I know I can finish things
So what is the point of letting these things bother me?
Instead of despair clawing to get attention
Now there is courage that replaces it
The courage to keep going through life
Instead of letting the fear cripple me
It will empower me to prove everyone wrong
To prove that I can achieve what I set my mind to
I am my hardest person to please
I don’t bow down for anything
When I see myself lacking I get angry
If I succeed in something I am pleased
But why does it feel like it is someone else I am working for?
Is it just an excuse? Or just a way to get me to work harder
I push myself hard, sometimes maybe a little too hard
But it seems to be the only way to be motivated
The only way to get things done right.
