my best friend killed herself today...i was always holding out that one day we would be together, but we lived in 2 different worlds, not to mention 2 different states...shes who i turned to, who i talked to when no one else understood....no one even knows why, but recently she started taking empty syringes and would drain blood from her arms with them....to get a simulated high...last night she went too far...i dont know what to think, i dont know what to do... i even feel like joining her.... ive never been this alone before, yet i cant imagine the pain she must have been in to have done that...i never had a clue...goodbye carmen....goodbye...
