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What are you waiting for?
Dearest world, wherever you are, listen to me, I won't be too far
Out of your arms, out of your reach, unable to move, unable to speak
About all the things, I've been meaning to say, about all the prayers, I've been meaning to pray
You stood by my side, when others would leave, you held my hand and you forced me to believe
About all the wishes, I saved up for someday, about all the times I would hope you would stay
Sometimes I hear whispers, voices somewhere, they tell me to fear and cause so much despair
They speak of the hardships, you're weak they would say, I would fall asleep crying and dreading next days
The good times and bad, the black and the gray, the scarcely heard screams and lies I would say
All the pain of the others, they knew not my disgust, and making them believe it was me they could trust
My own hands would force me, excuses for hate, my own mind would conjure and force open hell's gates
I yelled and I beckoned, nobody there heard my cries, they all flourished softly as my heart slowly dies
The seldom seen smiles, the laughs and the love, the glory of happiness I struggle to grasp from above
Ancient wisdom and virture, qualities wished and received, never to relinquish this constant pressure but never to see
The visions were blurry, murky and slow, running down like muddy water to which ends I'd never know
I must fight this battle, this struggle, this war, until I emerge the victor and finally settle the score
The anger builds stronger, my punishment, my pain, my eternal damnation, clench my teeth and remain
Finally I counter, plunge and latch onto the source, I've got you I scream with bitter horror and self-remorse
The tears come now quickly, I give up and let them drop down, anything to finally be rid of this pain all around
And finally it happens, a smile, a shine, the light grasps my hands and begins to guide me forward in time
I see a bright future, a beginning, a hope, after fighting this long and rough battle I'm finally able to cope
My story has blank pages, unwritten and clear, but my book is proceeding smoothly minus the past that I feared
Until my happy ending, God watches me from above, and nods his head proudly at the warrior who turned hate into love
Hanging on to hope, I walk alone through a neverending sea of dreams and wishes that will never come true
The views and opinions of others, these are things people value so highly, when your only real motivation and thoughts should stay to you
We hold our heads high, we assume we wander through this life with a great understanding of how things are supposed to be
The dimmest of knowledge, the very essence of confusion and a lost sense of reality are the things we keep attempting to see
Brutal singularity, resounding echoes and comforting waves of euphoria intermingle with indescribable feelings of happiness and wonder
Everlasting careless rampages, forever emptiness and deep seas of despair pour down and flood us like rains mixed with thunder
Perplexity, questions and thoughts roar inside our minds, always clinging and never falling towards the glimmer of need
Virtuosity speeding, animosity climbs the back of monstrosities, hatred blooming and madness hungers until we feel it must feed
Hope is thriving, darkness gathering and sunlight overshadowing, burning and living inside the essence we know only as sin
Knowing and achievements, brilliance shines brightly, casting faint shadows altogether gathering for one light to be let in
Thankfulness and glory, praising salvations still building, arising through ashes and searing fires still yet to be disclosed
Kingdoms and majesty, beautiful yet mesmerizing, causing unique formations, as a worthy adversary confirms his pose
Endings are closing, time rushes and continues, our paths intertwine and continue to follow until finally they collide as we begin to depart
A new beginning is forming, complete understanding and exultation, the road less traveled becomes the location to finally finding your heart
Time keeps on moving, the wheels of life keep spinning no matter how hard I try to slow them down
I ask myself what matters most, my hardships and pain or the unsettled feelings that keep hanging around
Most would have given up, but the strength I hold only came at the most highest of costs
The wonders I think about, the everlasting devotion that keeps my wishes and dreams at a loss
My pain wants me to cry, my pain wants me to give up and I strive to thwart this enemy of mine
The harder I fight, the more endless torture finds itself coming and I fear I may soon run short on time
Can you hear the whispers, can you feel the envy and sadness I hold so close to my soul
These seldom become voiced, the untimely essence that runs through my blood and makes my anger whole
Don't feel sad for me, I know how to fight and I know how to win these battles that happen so close to my heart
This anguish will fade, these voices will dwindle and soon I will be able to have my fresh start
Until then I struggle, I fight like the madness that engulfs and weakens my defenses and makes the barrier ever so thin
I often hear the calls of the hope and triumph, that wish to work their way through this black cloud of sin
Please don't lose all your hope, I tell myself daily and beckon to the light to come engulf my vision and make my life right
Until then I must keep yearning, I must keep grasping and dueling until it's me or the darkness that wins this long fight
Forever young, growing in the glory of creation and knowing that age is simply the window to the future
Forever old, basking in the rememberance of the past, reliving the moments that mask our present destinations
Forever scared, of the things that are to come, the unpredictable, inevitable current that flows our lives along
Forever unafraid, the strength to handle anything, everything, the embodiment of determination and dedication
Forever here, to face whatever time brings us, to conquer fallen dreams and destroy forgettable nightmares
Forever there, the place in your imagination, the fantasies and realities awaiting the path laid out for everyone
Forever confused, wondering what this life will bring, wondering how to handle devastation and resolve forgotten wishes
Forever knowing, understanding and correcting, fixing promises and mending fences that have long since been destroyed
Forever hated, harsh words and simple vexes, poignant phrases and malicious intents based upon frightening circumstances
Forever loved, to be viewed like rays of sunshine, to feel the warmth brought on by sacred embraces and a glowing touch
Forever forgotten, visions flash by only to be consumed by shadow, wondering and questioning lost memories
Forever remembered, the one worth never forgotten, the circumstances and acknowledgement that grow like fire
Forever alone, the embraces long distant, the touch and feel quieted never to be reawakened by a lingering presence
Forever together, with you everlasting, clinging tenaciously and fearlessly knowing your clutch will never waver
Forever seperate, longing for companionship, searching and seeking never to find the one thing so desperately needed
Forever with you, the place that holds my secrets, my wishes and prayers and the one place I know I will always belong
