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Battle of Love
The pain inside crowds my mind,
Like a wave of confusion that blinds me all the time.
A road I promised I wouldn't go down,
Has been traveled without a doubt.
I'm finding my self caught in a big battle.
Over love for a man I know I'll never have.
Why must I always go,
Down a road without any hope?
Just to watch me beg and plea,
For just a little touch from thee.
These thoughts crowd my mind.
Leaving me no place to hide.
Now all I wish to do is run away, and cry.
I just wanted to be shown,
The love that was given once.
I look upon with sorrow, sadden eyes,
And try so hard not to cry.
But when you love someone, more than they will ever know.
And you look into their eyes, without seeing the same inside.
Just cuts you deeper than a knife, and makes you fight not to cry.
As the waves of sad, confused love crashes down inside.
So continues the Battle of Love inside.
By : Aimee Buchanan @6:21pm on 9/1/2010
My heart is burden so to the point of no tears.
Past blends with the present
The future is in the mist
Yet my heart is still unclear
Try as I might to look past this crazy haze
To see what burdens are draining my soul of the happiness that it craves.
Walking lightly as to not to disturb the mist
So that some parts can become clear through this crazy haze that blinds my heart.
Going from path to path
Seeing the obstacles in front of me
Jumping every time I need to leap
Just to get passed one more hurdle that seems to block the happiness that my soul craves
Stopping by a tree
Just to rest in peace
Finding nothing but darkness downing my heart in more haze.
Crying out inside with no place to hide.
My heart is still yet burden to the point of no tears
Wondering if it will ever be clear
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Written by:
Aimee Buchanan
August 31, 2009
12:49 am
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In my darkness deep despair
This once happy girl
No more to hear
Blue tears come and
Blue tears go
Yet pain is great and so are their blows
To the heart that shatters in too
As the tears of sadden blue
Flow from her eyes
Like they always do
Greater now that their both in pain
Their hearts beat at the rhythm of
Chaos and gut wrenching pain
Never knowing if they will see each other again
Tortured and burn by lies of despair
They question everything
And hold on with a prayer
Not knowing who to believe or where to go
They just know they want there mother so
Written by: Aimee Buchanan
7/15/09
Going through the pain inside;
Trying not to run and hide.
Going through the pain inside;
Trying not to run and hide.
Fighting every urge of panic,
Yet no one around to save me from my insanity.
Trapped no place to go .
My world growing colder than the year before.
Wanting to be loved even more.
Just afraid to open the door.
No ones knocking to be let in,
No sign of sunshine
Not even a twinkle in my eye.
Yet day by day
I’m still going through the pain inside,
And never finding a place to run or hide.
Darker now as the sun goes down.
Yet still no sign not even a twinkle in the sky.
Eyes so cold not even I would stare,
For the soul is finding no rest here.
Searching for more answers,
But only finding questions.
Still seeing the hopelessness of a life not worth leading .
Trying hard to not let go,
Just not seeing any other way to go.
Storm an thunder’s are upon their way.
While rain drops hit my cold dark face.
Troubled more than before.
Just finding it so much harder to keep holding on,
As my soul grows colder than the year before.
Letting it’s self go with each step
Upon the cold dark floor.
Knowing that when time is up .
The pain and insanity will soon give up
As it has done before.
Only this time it knows
Never to return to the fierce cold life of
This weary wanderer
That seems to still be going through the pain inside
And never , ever finding a place to run or hide
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Written by
Aimee Buchanan
7/13/09
8:16 pm
LOST IN MY MIND
CAN’T FIND EVEN THE TIME
NOT SURE WHICH WAY TO TURN
ALMOST GOING INSANE
JUST NEEDING ONE LITTLE BREAK
DON’T KNOW WHICH ROAD TO TAKE
LOST IN THIS TRANCE OF A CONFUSED STATE
TUGGED FROM BOTH ENDS
LOST IN SIN
NOT SURE WHAT LOVE IS
CAN NEVER KNOW HOW THIS ALL BEGAN
BEGGING FOR A WAY OUT
NO LIGHT TO SHOW ANY SIGN
JUST LOST IN MY OWN CHAOTIC MIND
FINDING NO WAY OUT
DANGLING BY ONE LIFE LINE
NOT SURE WHAT DESTINY WILL FIND
THINK I AM LOSING MY MIND
FINDING IT HARD TO BREAK OUT
OF THIS SPIRAL OF UNKNOWN KNOWLEDGE HAS FOUND
WONDERING WHO IS THE FOOL
NOT SURE IF IT IS ME
SEEING EVERYTHING WITH CLOSED EYES
NOT EVEN SEEING MY SELF PLEASED
IN TOUCHED WITH LOW SELF-ESTEEM
RUNNING YET NEVER GOING FAR
WONDERING THIS LONELY HIGHWAY
JUST WANTING TO SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY
THINGS CHANGING EVER SO FAST
NOT EVEN A PLEASANT MOMENT CAN LAST
SEEING MY DREAMS BECOME A REALITY
YET SCARING THE HOLY SHIT OUT OF ME
LOST IN MY OWN TRAIN OF THOUGHT
WONDERING HOW I DID IT ALL
SUDDENLY EVERYTHING’S CAUGHT UP WITH ME
NOW I AM NOT KNOWING WHERE I STAND
NOT SURE OF THE WORLD AROUND ME
UNSURE ABOUT HOW I WILL BE
NOT WANTING TO MAKE A MISTAKE
YET NOT ACCEPTING I HAVE WHAT IT TAKES
I JUST WISH TO BE ME
BUT FOR NOW I AM IN MY FRANTIC CAGED MIND
WONDERING
WHY ME??????
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WRITTEN BY: AIMEE
Wednesday, December 6, 2006
I long for you touch each night that I cry
Your the one thats always on my mind
When you tuck me in at night
I just want to be by your side
For you love is all I ever need
And your voice keeps me alive in side
You raise my spirits so high
That at night I just want to lay by your side
To keep me warm at night
With your arms around me so tight
OH! Baby!
Your the one and Only one
Your the joy that fills my lungs
When you think of me I Cry
Just knowing that your always by my side
And now that I have your love
My frown is now a great big smile
No matter how long or far I have to go
Were gonna be together someday I just know
Cause
Your the one and Only one
Your the joy that fills my lungs
When you think of me I Cry
Just knowing that your always by my side
And tonight I just lay my head down and cry .
written by
AimeeBuchanan
Can you come and hold me tight
Will you come and lay by my side
Can we ever go back?
To the way we were
When we were young
Do you ever dream at night?
Can you ever see us?
Do we always fight?
Or can we close our eyes
To the way we are.
Is it only a dream we share
Or is it just this nightmare
That we travel separate roads
Just to get to be alone.
Can we come to common ground?
Can we forgive our past?
Can we move on?
To share this dream we had
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We were children then
Now we have come so far
Since then.
So I ask you please
Can we go back to the way we were?
Will we ever stop this fight?
Can’t we just compromise?
And share the love we once had.
Or do we travel on our own
To worlds unseen
To find our own dreams
Must we suffer in shame?
Can we ever change this pain?
Or do we just give in to the loneliness we face.
written by
AimeeBuchanan
Every time I look into your eyes
I see the fear that you try to hide
Hearing the confusion of your mind
Trying to even find the time to have
Wanting to be somewhere your not
Knowing so many people depend on
But the one true thing I really see in your eyes
Is the love you so desperately try to hide?
From everyone but me
If only I could help you with your chaos
To give you solutions to your madness
Understanding which way you truly want to go
Finding ways to please them all
Unfortunately I only have this bit of help
Look with in your self
There you’ll find the answers you seek
Just please don’t for get about my love for you and me.
Hoped this help and if it didn’t
Just remember
I have a tongue that would love to be down on you.
And as I always know just how the story goes
This as well will put a smile on your face instead of a frown.
Love you always and well forever
written by
AimeeBuchanan
IN THE DARKNESS OF MY MIND
THE CHAOS THAT CONTROLS ME
I LOOK ABOVE AND SEE
THE LIGHT THAT SHINES FOR ME
I WATCH AS IT COMES CLOSER
FEELING ALL THE CHAINS THAT BIND MY SOUL
I TOSE AND TURN WITH IN MY DECRIPED MIND
WITH THE CHAOS AND DARKNESS TRING TO HOLD ON
TO THE PIECES LEFT BEHIND
THE LIGHT GETS BRIGHTER NOW
AND EVER CHAIN THAT BINDS ME STARTS
TO BREAK FREE
I AM FREE
FREE FROM THE DARKNESS
FREE FROM THE CHAOS
AND ALL THAT CONTROLS ME
I AM FREE
THESE CHAIN AROUND ME
FALL LIKE GLASS SHATTERING
LETTING MY SOUL BE FREE
I WATCH AS IT TAKES FLIGHT
SORES ABOVE ALL TYPE OF HIGHTH
FEELIN THE SHINE OF THE GLOW OF THE LIGHT
IT IS FREE
FREE FROM THE CAGE YOU PUT ME IN
IT FOUND THE KEY
THE ONE YOU HAD LOCK WITH IN ME
I FOUND IT DEEP WITH MY HEART
AND I SET MY SELF FREE
FREE FROM YOUR CONTROL
FREE FROM YOU POWER
ALLOWING ME TO BE ME
I NO LONGER NEED YOUR DARKNESS
I NO LONGER NEED YOUR CHAOS
MY SOUL AND MIND ARE FREE
TO LEARN AND WALK THE PATH OF LIGHT FOR ME
I AM FREE
FREE FROM YOUR CONTROL
FROM YOUR POWER OVER MY SOUL
YOU NO LONGER ARE WELCOMED
YOU NO LONGER HAVE A PLACE TO ROME
FOR MY HEART
SOUL
BODY AND MIND
ARE FREE TO BE FREE
THERE IS NO LONGER ANY PAIN
THERE IS NO MORE HURT WITH IN ME
THE CHAINS HAVE GONE
AND I NO LONGER LIVE WITH IN THIS CAGE
OF DARKNESS THAT WAS PUT IN THE CORNER
BY YOUR SIDE
I HAVE FOUND THAT KEY
THAT HAS
SET ME
FREE
FREE TO BE ME
written by
AimeeBuchanan
took a walk in the garden today
I nelt at the flowers to say
Hey how you doin
Its a bright wonderful day
The sun is shineing in all its glorious ways
God what a beautiful day
You whispered back to me
Yes it is
I was startled to think you could hear
Then suddenly out of the mist you see
I saw you rise to me
And I said Hey how you doin
Its a bright wonderful day
The sun is shining in all its glorious ways
God what a beautiful day
It is to see your grace.
You walked towards me
One step at a time
Flowers seem to bow at your sight
Birds are curping bees are buzzing
Even the wind seems to know what to say
But all I can think of Is
Hey how you doin
Its a bright wonderful day
The sun is shining in all is glorious ways
God what a beautiful day
And oh by the way what a Beautiful Girl He Made!
written by
AimeeBuchanan
