Kat's blog: "poetry by me"

Saw you there your eyes peirced mine knew you were the one no doubt in my mind but i just kept on lookin for the next big sign I've waisted the time that i've been given my reason for living right in front of me ohhhh my blind insecurity... I need to jump and dont look down dont care if your feet ever hit the ground its part of life and part of love just take a chance dont give up on us I see you now, your eyes peirce mine again and i need to try this all over again will i have the nerve to say all i've realized today? I see its you I know its you Oh crazy me to let me be so alone but my hearts no longer stone I need to jump and dont look down dont care if your feet ever hit the ground its part of life and part of love just take a chance dont give up on us So will you Just Jump and not look down Will you care if your feet ever hit the ground? Cuz it's part of life and part of love So just take the chance. DONT GIVE up Take a chance Don't give up on us!

***AHEAD OF TIME KNOW THIS ABOUT THIS SONG::: I consider this MY faith. If you have another, it is yours to account for. I wrote this as a part of who I am and what I believe. If you do not want to read further, by all means please don't. If you do..then blessed be.**** this was not an apology unless you consider the real meaning of apology which is *giving a reason to your actions* In the Theatre of My Mind (c) jan. 1999 The scene is dark and dismal and my saviors hanging on the cross he's suffering I know he's sure to die at his head's a sign thats saying king of the jews at hihs feet his blood is flowing and those who trust him will not be refused chorus and he's sayin i've got heaven in view in the theatre of my mind and the pain that i'm now going thrugh will momentarily subside Right now I die that you might live and right now my blood i shed to give new life to you and in time I'm goin home and in time I'm goin home The scene is lonely and my heart is broken as i see m y saviour there askin if i will turn from sin and to his side i'll go him i'll now follow and above my head i now lift my prayers that fall at his wounded feet now i am praying to that king of the jews knowing that he won't refuse me chorus and he's sayin i've got heaven in view in the theatre of my mind and the pain that i'm now going thrugh will momentarily subside Right now I die that you might live and right now my blood i shed to give new life to you and in time I'm goin home and in time I'm goin home

I may not say it enough but i love you I may not hold you enough but i want to I may not be what you want me to be but i love you just the same and there's no shame in that love I may not cry when you cry I may not laugh each time you laugh I may be silent, not knowing what you need to hear that's why i wrote this song for you I may not smile if I'm mad I may not laugh if my day does rather bad I may not act like i care but i do sometimes i'm full of attitude! I may not say it enough but i love you (you better say it darlin) I may not hold you enough but i want to (you better hold me baby) I may not be what you want me to be but i love you just the same and there's no shame theres no shame theres no shame in my love

I see you from accross the room and i have to assume that you and me we could have been but fate seems to bring to me a little cold water as i think about the future of forever chorus Your two years, two days, two minutes too late for me to miss your smile and for me and for you to get it together its just one in a million times NEVER I seem to be into you and these feelings seem so true infatuation, agravation, distraction that you are and only if only i didnt have to be so far from sharing you with part of my forever chorus tag and when i see you smile my heart screams in pure denial for all of these feelings runnin through me that i can never share with you... chorus *all of my works are copyrighted and have musical arrangements to them.

When we met there was a connection that ran deep into my eyes i could see you wanted to get to know me and lately it seems we spend alot of time in each others company and i want you to know chorus: you can trust in me all i want to be is your best friend thru eternity you can depend on me baby put your trust in me I know you , you said you'd been through a whole lot of pain tremendous loss and in this time we now share i want you to know that i care i truly care chorus

I fall, I fail, I try, I prevail no matter what the loss, I count the cost of each success and failure... My intentions are so pure, My impact can be sure And I cannot try hard enough to find a simple cure. The loss I sometimes feel, when abundance doesnt fall immediately in my lap; desired most of all- I see so much that that I lack. I cannot separate my effort from the prayers of every day. I can't take a breath That I need more today than yesterday. I need the love of God to help me day by day... This day like any other with prayers and living proof of answers in succession is MY WALK OF TRUTH.

How did it get this far I wonder what will be for us tomorrow... You have too much history With the demons of your past All I see in you now is a misery that lasts... Maybe you'll change? I doubt it... Come up for air? I doubt it... Will I be here...for ...you...tomorrow? I can't see myself living in this dark... It's too dismal watching you being HAUNTED BY YOUR PAST. I'm not saying I don't accept you for who you truly are But the pain of all you bear alone won't get us very far... Maybe this will change? I doubt it... Come up for some air? I doubt it... Will I be here...for ...you...tomorrow? I doubt it.

How can so many words and so many promises just not mean not a thing? How can this gold here on my finger not signify unending value? How can the time We spent together in living Only turn out to be A memory of life now so jaded And thoughts of what now can't be..... For Lies of Love only work until you stop believing And these lies of love You keep on feeding me I am done believing... I am done believing... So many words So many promises broken in so many ways Words are so pretty but actions are needed to push all the doubt away... One simple compliment: time spent with me is all that could have been needed but theres not much desire I have at listening to Lies upon lies driven like knives through my heart.... For Lies of Love only work until you stop believing And these lies of love You keep on feeding me I am done believing... I am done believing... (C) september 20, 2006 karin-rochelle digrugilliers-wilmoth