mysticalluvmidnightillusions's blog: "poetry and freestyles"

I MEET THE MOST AWSOME PEOPLE ON THE NET, BUT THEN IN REAL LIFE THE WAY THEY WERE BEFORE THEY SEEM TO FORGET, WHAT HAPPENED TO ALL THE REAL MEN IN THIS WOLRD, HOW COME THEY TEND TO BE SO FAKE, THEY PROMISE YOU THIS AND THAT BUT THEN THEY SEEM AGAIN TO FORGET, THEY SAY THEY WILL NEVER HURT YOU IN ANY WAY BUT THEN ITS DIFFERENT WHEN YOUR FACE TOO FACE, ONCE YOU HAVE YOUR HEART ON YOUR SLEEVE AND YOUR TEARS ON THE FLOOR THEY DONT SEEM TO CARE ANYMORE, IF ALL THEY WANT IS A PEICE OF ASS THEN MAYBE THEY SHOULD BE LOOKING FOR WHITE TRASH, I HAVE YET TO MEET A NICE GUY, ONE WHO IS FAITHFULL AND WILL NEVER LIE, I WANT A MAN WHO WILL NEVER CHANGE FROM THE TIME WE MEET TILL THE END OF DAYS, IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE WHO CAN BE THIS MAN, IF SO HIT ME UP BECAUSE ONE DAY LIFES GONNA END!

THE CHOICES I MADE BRINGS ME BACK TIME AND TIME AGAIN TO WONDERING WHY I DID SOME OF THE THINGS I DID, YES I AM HAPPY AND FEEL FREE BUT SOMETIMES I WOUNDER WHAT IS IN STORE FOR ME, I AM SICK OF WONDERING SICK OF SEARCHING SICK OF WAITING, WHEN WE ARE ALONE IT POINTS TO NOTHING BUT ME EXISTS BUT WHEN IN THE SAME HOUSE ITS ON HER TO SHOW THAT NOT ONLY HER OR ME EXISTS BUT US, ALL ABOUT HER DURING THE DAY BUT BY NIGHT WITH ME IS WHERE HE LAYS, DO I DOUBT HE LOVES ME NO, BUT WILL I EVER BE FIRST IS THE QUESTION I KEEP IN MY MIND, HE TOLD ME THE FIRST NIGHT HE WANTED ME TO BE BY HIS SIDE THROUGH THE STRUGGLES IN LIFE AND HIS LIFE BUT IN TIME COMES MANY MORE THINGS IN WHICH I SHOULD COME FIRST BUT IS THAT THE WAY IT WILL EVER BE, NOT ASKING HIM TO GIVE HER FRIENDSHIP UP NOR WILL I EVER ASK OR NOR WILL I EVER GIVE UP MINE AND HERS FOR ANYONE, BUT IN MY EYES THERE'S THAT LINE WEAR FAMILY AND YOUR FUTURE LIFE COMES FIRST, I AM SO CONFUSED, BUT I KNOW ONE DAY EVERYTHING WILL BE CLEAR AND ALL THE ANSWERS WILL BE RIGHT THERE AND IN MY LIFE HE WILL NO LONGER BE! ABOUT AN EX

A BIG CITY GIRL LIVING IN A SMALL TOWN WORLD: Those big city lights use to be my life walking the streets till quarter to five id stay out all night and sleep the day away until finally i got a wish that i made one day i woke up one morning on the campground dirt i heard a woman's voice say are you coming to work i said yes i am and suddenly my stomach hurt i said something aint right today i gotta go to the hospital then when i seen the doctor this is what i heard congratulations little lady your gonna have a little baby girl and too my surprise something changed my life I've gotta get out get out of these big city lights I've gotta take her away to a better place a place ware someone cares for both of us anyway a nice small town with no harm to be around a quiet place in this world would be the best for me and my little girl yeah it would be a nice change no more fighting and arguing no more big city lights for my baby girl its time to do whats right last thing i remember my foot was out the door and i looked back and said goodbye cruel cold world I'm off to be a small town girl no more big city lights no more putting up with the fights say good by to that big city world and say hello to this small town girl as the bus drove away i watched those big city lights fade i said to my self I'm gonna be that small town girl living in a small town world im gonna make that change and do what ever it takes to be that big city girl living in that small town world and now i am that big city girl living in that small town world no more big city lights no more arguing and fights say hello to this big city girl living in this small town world.

many nights and many moons, nothing can change the pain brought on to you, you can scream and shout that is no doubt, but the laughter grows as your blood flows, the ground gets soaked and i smile as you choke, now whos the one thats life is a joke, you did this to me, you made me sick, now its payback time you helpless fucked up bitch, on the count of three your life you will no longer see, so close your eyes and think of what you did to me!

you say i will never find love, you say i am no good, you say that since i am not the same my life will be hell, in all reality my life is well, me not being the same brings my past to be the blame, i have found all the love i need and she is right here with me, the only one in this world that could show me a love that is real, i am the best there ever was and ever could be, so all of you that have fucked me look at what i have become to be, this is what you made me!

MY one and only my baby girl: your my one and only my baby girl, you have brought a whole new meaning to love in this world, when i was blessed with you i was blessed with a gift, the greatest gift that anyone could ever have, when ever you need mommy just reach out your hand, your my one and only my baby girl and i am so glad i brought you into this world. love always mommy

you think you know me you dont know shit so shut your fucking face bitch, you think your shit dont stink, well there aint no smell of roses there, it smells worse than your fake ass hair, ha you think your the only one with a fucked up life, well news flash ho your lifes a joke, try getting beat and slapped in the face, kicked in the back raped by every man who was suppose to protect you, locked up in your room for a year livin on the streets and having nothing to look forward too but your tears anything close to you always ripped away from under your feet, yeah bitch lifes a treat!!!