Br0k3nh3art's blog: "Poems"

Every since she moved awayu You've been wanting me around I'm sick of it Sure I want you in my life If you are doing this because she left I'll be pissed I want you to really want me in your life I don't want you to be my firend since she left Don't you see I have a life I dont't want to be your rebound I'm sick of it Yes I wnat you in my life If you're doing this because she left I'll be pissed I'll be pissed if you want me around Just because she left

I see them Holding hands Loving one another I sit and cry I think to myself What is worng with me Why can't I have that i want it so bad When I have it through I get scared I run and hide I lose what everyone else has I get jealouse I try and giet it too I want to hold hands I want the joy I want the smiles What is worng with me Why can't I have it I just want what everyone else has I'm not one to fallow the pack Just this once I wnat ot be with the pack I wnat the love

I don't want this to go away I love this feeling I have inside We wont do anything at all We can just sit there and I'll have the time of my life I am never in fear I am never in dought I am never in sarrow I am never in pain when with you I am always in smiles You notice it too I miss there being an us I hate hearing she is just a friend I want to be more I miss being your girlfreind I am sorry for what I did I shouldn't of been afraid I know you would of never hurt me I never should of listened Listend to that little voice in my head The voice that ruined everything good for me I am not letting it ruin us I care for you still I just don't know how to tell you I still want an us

The times we have together The times we spent apart Every time I'm with you I fall harder and harder The times we are apart I miss you more and more I start to realize what you mean to me I finally feel like I deserve this one thing That I don't have to question everything I don't have to question why you like me I can just tell by the look in your eyes that you truely do want to be with me I worry though Not seeing you so much the time we are apart You will leave me I'm araid of that You are the one thing that has made me happy You get me through my days I don't know what I would do without you by my side I don't know how it was befor without you I just don't want to go back that way I just care so much Everytime I see you i fall for you more and more Everytime we are apart I miss you more and more It pulls me apart

The time has come for me to break away Break away from this person I have made people believe I am I'm not all smiles no matter what I am a human being I do have my downs The pain is just to much to haold onto right now The fear of what is starting to surfface The feeling I promised myself I wouldn't get involved with The feeling that always seems to bite me in the ass People think I can take what they throw at me No matter how many blows I take I fake mys mile The smile that makes people believe I'm perfectly fine The pain has become to much Not being able to do anything right for anyone Dissapointing one person after another Trying to please everyone It's become so much for me Not being able to make people happy I don't like the dissapointment My smile I know The one I use to trick everyone Is becoming fake I don't know what happened to it they use to say I should be an actress with that fake smile Being able to play a part that I'm not Now they notice something is wrong I don't want people to tell when I'm upset Why can't it go back to the way it was when people thought I could take anything That it was amazing how much was put my way Yet I seemed to be so strong What no one kIt's time for me to suck it up again Is in the shadows of the night I would lay and cry Cry my helpless self to sleep every night It's time for me to suck it up again Use that world famous smile of mine That wonderful fake smile

The light in your eyes makes my stomic flip The sparkel in your smile makes my day The way your arms fit so perfectly around me Makes me want to stay The way your gental lips touch mind makes me float to heaven The way my hand fits perfectly in yours makes me smile the way my head fits so perfectly on yours sholder gives me butterflies How can just one person make me feel this way It makes no sence to me The way it feels so right How no matter what I smile when I see you Everytime I see him I fall harder for him How can this be I have never found something so right Something that felt so right This isn't suppose to happen to me I'm suppose to be lonely all my life How is it he knows the right time to call He knows just how to cheer me up Make my day How does he do it

My body trembels My poor knees go weak Just at the slightest touch from you My mind is in a boogle My heart starts to race When I jsut hear your name My smile is always bigger My life is always better When I am around you The feeling I get Is all I regret Why does this have to happen now I can't afford to get hurt again My life can't take another miss hap Not knowing how you feel back Is that snag in our rope I don't want to let you know but It's just something that is so hard Hard to say Hard to think about All I know is I'm confused Confused on my emotions for you They are on the edge The edge of like and love Just everytime I love I get my poor innocent heart broken I lose the guy I don't want to lose you I'll just keep it inside

In those arms of that special someone Time has a tendency to just freeze Nothing can ruin such a moment Not even if the world was ending Knowing you are safe and wanted Hearting your hearts race Resting your head on that special someones chest Just to listen to thier heart beat with yours Smelling that oh so familar scent of theirs Feeling those arms go around you tighter Wanting them to never let go That is all I need from him I know I can't have him but I know As long as I have those arms around me I know I know I can make it threw

You aren't the guy I fell hard for You aren't the guy I still care for You have changed Changed for the worse When you are with them do you still think of me when you light that up tell me one thing Do you even think abotu how it affects me I don't even believe you anymore I miss being so close to you do you miss being close to me do you miss me being in your arms Do you miss giving me those tight hugs And not letting go Do you miss anything about me I know this is all about me But you say you still care And I don't believe you

You are the best thing to happen to me I know I should say were But you as a friend is the best thing for me You were the best to me Treated me like I should be treated I could of had the worst day of my life then all I needed was to see your face Those arms open wide And my face would light up with a smile You made all my troubles go away I knew I was safe by your side I wasn't afraid of what I felt for you I wasn't afraid of how fast I fell for you You made sure nothing hurt me If something did you never gave up Never gave up to make it stop You were my guardian angel That looked out for me I knew you would never hurt me Well that is were I was wrong You hurt me the worst way possible You promised me nothing would change That you wouldn't change That was a bunch of lies You changed for the worse I don't even know you any more I don't even trust you I am afraid to come to you about anything You say you still care And I eat up that lie Eat it right up from the palm of your hand I know it's not good I know I shouldn't believe you Just I want to That's why i eat that lie up I eat it up right out of the palm of your hand