Jailbait's blog: "poems"

WHY? why must everything be so fucked up? why must i love him so much why must i miss him so why must he have left why must i feel like crying why must the tears come why did everything go so wrong why did he leave, was it me? why can't he just be here with me why why must he come back and act so much like a prick why must he never know what i actually feel why must the tears come again and again always hurting and never getting hurt back why must i have such a big heart why does he make it hurt so much why it was bliss but it turned shitty why does it always happen to me always and always never ending it is why he will never know how i actually feel

Over Coming Fear As they step out of the shadows that harness the deepest insecurities of your soul... The fears that mankind has kept back since the dawn of time are released. While undertaking said procedures to somehow stop this, something fails. Failure within the system, the same system that keeps watching your every movement. Moving ever so slowly, softly, you fee a omnipresent being walking beside you. You fear the being, but it re-assures you there is nothing to be feared. For as long as you have this being with you, there can be no harm. Once the transition of evil has taken place, the being slowly fades away... Longing for another leader, groups start to form, some with causes of bring said being back. Some with causes of invoking a much greater evil, for once this evil has unleashed its havoc... There is no turning back, a solid stand point in this day and age. Lest the fathoms of your mind corrupt the heart which has been molded to suit your needs. Tormenting your heart, soul, and mind, longing for corruption of your kind. Evil will soon overcome the good, and the battle will begin. Listen to the battle cries of the warriors fighting the never ending war. In this day and age, the tough shall be triumphant. Toughness is no of strength, or size. Yet of courage, heart, and the will to see what is best at the current time. In the never ending battle of Good versus Evil, there shall be no victor. Soon, both sides will retreat to recover from their wounds, and the portals shall be closed. Portals to the field, catacombs of the lost. A true victor will be chosen, once one side has all but one warrior left. Only if the warrior is severely injured, with deadly wounds, shall there be a victory. Pray that the victory go to the side suitable for this current standing point of ages. If the victor is not suited for the ages of time, the greatest fear will be released. Plagues, famine, sorrow, illness... Demons shall walk the plains of the living, unable to be vanquished for the last time. Vanquished to the Netherlands, as if nothing happened. Forever roaming in the heads of small children, unleashing fears, for isn’t that what it all is? Fear, is just in the eyes of the beholder. There are no true fears, only what you make them out to be. Death is just another phase in the plain of the living. Even after aforementioned ripple effect, there shall be life. Living with the Gods, walking amongst the demons, for you shall have an eternal soul. Nothing to fear, for long as you walk with the Gods, and live with the demons... The true battle has just begun, the battle with your mind, living in fear. -Dedicated to Bobby RIP

Accept The Shadows As good is to evil, death is to life. While during the life cycle, you are just a pawn for a bigger purpose. Yet, during the end of your days, you start to take a step down. Down the road of endless dreams, your mind wanders. Soon, your life will end, you have no control over this. Stepping out of the shadows, taking you. You are not living, you shall not be missed... As you have already been forgotten. All of your possessions, memories, and life, have been displaced. In this world, they have no knowledge of what lurks within the shadows. Once you have been assimilated, there is no turning back. Your mind is at a complete loss, nothing left to do but follow. And as you follow, there is no greater purpose. Just lurking within the shadows, preying on the unsuspecting. Though there is no real acknowledgment of your doings. Someone will find out, soon enough. And the field will be destroyed. No purpose for being, no reason to be existent. Slowly, your mind is going to be taken over by fear. And with this fear they will come. Feeding off of the fear that harnesses the insecurities within your soul. While they slowly fade back into the shadows, all will be lost. In an endless cycle, this happens. There is no stopping it, no acceptance. Drones everywhere, marching around in the abysmal of lost souls. Within time, you will be found, and forgotten. Do not doubt this, as it has happened, time and time again. There is no future, only wandering mindlessly within this realm. Step inside of your mind, and slowly find yourself lost with fear. You have no control of your mind, body, or soul. It will all be lost, within a short period. Because within this world, of tyranny and way. There is nothing but fear, hatred, and jealousy. You are no one, nothing in this time. Maybe someday, if you do escape, you will become something. Until then, prepare to be assimilated.

Fighting The Rage As I jab you with a knife, just to sit and stare while you bleed. Standing and laughing at the puddle of blood massing amongst your feet. Gasping for air, as the soul is sucked out of your body. All while assuming your life to end at this very moment. You escape to the shadows, now living amongst the truth behind darkness. Consuming everyone’s fear, you shall now see, how true the workings of the shadows are. Are you breathing? No, because if they could see you, then it would be ruined. The whole inner-workings of the purpose. Completely destroyed. But, what is the purpose? Is it for some greater good? No, it is simply a way of existence. Insanity lies within fear, and with this fear, comes a movement. Another movement, another second within the abysmal maze of your mind. Do not deny the feelings of rage that lie within. For once you deny the feeling, it becomes stronger. Until you cannot take it anymore, and continue with the rampaging madness that feeds the beast. The beast that lies within the fears of your soul, the very meaning of your being. While the madness consumes every single moment, you slowly start turning violent. Violent towards those whom you “care about”, or “love”. Amongst the midst of the violence, they try to “calm you down”. There is no stopping the madness, as it lies solely within you. Sanctuary within the rampaging mind is seldom found. Alas, it slowly eats at your existence, until there is nothing left but a mere shadow. Take a look around, you are living in a violent society. Pushing, and fighting away from the sane, just for the sole purpose of being. Racing around inside your mind, anger eats away at your head. Never have there been so many complications, just simple solutions. Acceptance is rare in these times of anger, greed, and hatred. Hatred, coming from the deep, dark corners of the anger. Greed, wanting everything that you can’t have. Anger, fuming away at life, and its very purpose. There is no purpose for being, it just happens. Being an enemy to all that is nice, faithful, and sane. You are now in the loop, walking with the fresh blood, amongst the shadows. Stepping out of the shadows, the very ones that harness the insecurities of your soul. Once you have stepped back into the land of the sane, it is different. No more rage, hatred, anger, greed, or hate. The quirks, bugs, and kinks or the shadows, shall never again be known to you. As once you have stepped outside, there is no safe return.