Tazy's blog: "POEMS"

one last poem for the nite.. since i jus wrote it... 4give the shortness of it jus know its how my heart achez az of this minute The First Day I Saw You The first day I saw you You were like a dream true. The first day I saw you I knew i loved you. The first day I saw you love was my world. The first day I saw you I just became your girl. And now that you know you're all inside my mind. You took advantage of that and left my heart behind. And though I will always love And cherrish every minute w/you The pain of not having you Pain of all you made me believe. The trust I once again had in words Simply hurts & right now Makes me feel as though Now I regret... the first day I saw you. Had I known the pain it'd bring Or been prepared for the heartache The emptiness of not having you The unsure feeling of not knowing If or when I will ever see you again. Though I see you every time I close my eyes. Feel you near me when I lay in the bed we shared. Ache for the last day we touched, Missing the last kiss at the bus station. Hating leaving you there cuz something Something... something said I'd never see you again. Now I know why... Though I have regrets of the first day I saw you, My life would not have had at least the small Change in it to make me believe I was worth loving... keeping... having. I was worth the time... The actual REAL emotion of being LOVED Someone who understood & accepted me for ME... Actualy loved me as such. Yet, once again... just like everyone before you I'm left.. alone, shattered, torn apart inside Missing someone I will never have again I know that now & no matter how much it hurts... Though I knew the risk of losing you was there After all, they all leave me at some time... I'd give so much... Just to have that day... The first day I saw you. I love you more than words can say, More than measure can show, More than I realized I was able to. So the pain I now have from loving you Is also the joy I have from loving you. So the first day I saw you I knew I'd love you but I also knew I'd lose you And the first day I saw you Is worth the pain of the last day I saw you Knowing I'd never see you again... I love you muchez ~Tazy~

this iz a very old one... none the less.. seemz rather fittin theze dayz "She Misses Him" She misses being touched The way he used to touch her. The slight brush to her face.. A touch on the hand. A simple reminder He's happy to be her man. She misses his arms Holding her close in his hugs. She misses him being proud Of her being his Snuggle Bug. She misses the love That once danced in his eyes. Now she lays in bed at night And quietly cries. She misses the hunger That once was in his kiss The love he used to show for her She will forever miss I miss the me I used to be Back when he wanted to be with me. ~Tazy~

Sweetest Pain Your love,your kiss,your eyes so bright.. Helping me through another lonesome night. The love you gave made me happy.. Your time away makes me sad.. But you are the sweetest pain I ever had.. I miss the sound of your voice.. The touch of your skin.. I long for you To hold me .. make love to me again.. You showed me things I've never been shown.. You're the sweetest pain I've ever known... Standing at the edge of my heart.. I give you my love.. together or apart.. Because of you.. I feel pain so deep inside.. Cuz you are the sweetest pain.. I can ever hide... I love you... And I always will.. You will always be the sweetest.. Pain I will ever feel... ~Tazy~

"Just Another Stranger" Longing for another To try to fill the empty space Pretending pleasures of the flesh Can take its place. Just another stranger To distract us from our pain Someone there to make us feel A temporary feeling of being wanted again. Knowing that soon after We hear the footsteps of them going away. And again, we are left alone. Knowing we face another day Of being alone inside Showing people around us Only what we allow them to see. But knowing inside Your desire can never be.. Because of you ~Tazy~

Can you feel the pain I feel? Can you taste the tears I cry? Do you know how long I've felt alone, And know I'm the reason why? Can you hear the words I try to say? Can you help me begin? Can you know the fears I have? Can you help me escape this private hell I've been in? Nobody can do these things. Nobody really sees. The pains and fears I have, Are mostly due to me. I live behind this wall I built... At times, I want to come out. But as soon as I open the door, My heart and mind are filled with doubt. My mind and heart are in a giant war. I will always find a ways to hide my heart more... At times it seems my heart is under lock and key. Like I keep it wrapped up tight. Though love is what I want to have... It stays far out of sight. So again, I ask... can you feel the pain I feel? Can you taste the tears I cry? Do you know how long I've been alone, And know I'm the reason why? ~Tazy~

My love for you is something I can't explain. It's grows more and more every day, Yet, I can't seem to find the words for how much It can't compare to the words I say. I look into those eyes And I see the one I love and so much more. I kiss your lips and think of when they first touched mine. I hear your words and know you are who I adore. You are the one that makes me smile. You are the one that makes my bad days bright. I think of things we have done And how you make my dark days light. You mean everything to me And I hope that you can see The love I have for you Is really meant to be. I love ya Jeff

March 19, 2008 @ 5:16 am "These Days" ~For Ashley a/k/a DollFace~ There's not one day that comes along Where my body doesn't long For the soft feeling of your sweet kiss. The passion of your touch that I so miss. Not one day has passed me by That it doesn't take all I have not to cry. Where I miss you less then the day before Cuz w/every day I miss & love you more. Not one single night has come to be Where I don't miss you laying next to me. Where I look at where you once laid And wonder how I'll make it thru the next day. It seems w/every sound I hear It only makes me want you HERE. Every place I look & every where I go I see some part of you that helps me know... No matter how near or far apart we are The memories of us are never very far And you'll alwayz be a part of me... Of something that's truly meant to be. I love & miss my Dollface In so many painful but happy ways. Just thought you should know Some of the thingz I'm feeling these days. I love n miss u MANY GREAT BIG GIANT MUCHEZ!!! ~Tazy~