Uniquely ME's blog: "Poems"

She's up not down She'll bring you a smile and wipe away your frown There's laughter in her eyes if you ever saw it, you'd wallow in her cries. Where she walks, you want to know you'd follow where ever she goes You're always there when she calls waiting to catch her when she falls When you can, you hold her close you know you're the one she loves most Yet, she always walks away and where she walks you want to know You'd follow where ever she goes you're always there when she calls Waiting to catch her when she falls Don't know why i'm always there Everytime, i swear i'm done one day, i won't care This shit's no fun I deserve better than this A real, good man Won't take this shit Need someone who gives a damn But where she walks, I want to know I'd follow where ever she goes I'm still there when she calls Catching her everytime she falls Because she's the one I love

Into the void my mind wanders thoughts of love are streaming As I sit and ponder do we all really have meaning? inside us there's a part of fate powerful and gleaming searching without peril for it's mate though it's only half of a whole it's strong and amazing I've found it in you, the rest of my soul.

The hardest part about leaving is saying goodbye. Everything here has meaning. this is to tell you why. I just couldn't go without letting you know Just how much you've meant to me. very special you've become to be. I'll cherish our memories. all the time spent Saying things we really meant. treasuring the love we felt Held tight in eachothers' arms. just being there to help. I just want you to know that even though We are finally apart you are in my heart. With words so kind you're still in my mind Our love was so true i'll never forget you I hope you stay the man I knew Enjoy each day be happy in what you do. If I never see you again here's my goodbye, Friend.

I've swallowed a secret, burning thread. It cuts me inside and often i've bled. Pain comes, I don't seek it. turn inward, try to hide. Inner demons come forth wit. life's in rewind. Bringing the hurt I try to bury. anguish, devistation, I must run. Coming back....it's all so scary. the knot I tied them in's come undone. Slipping,i'm falling downward. it's to much, can't reach out. Emotions spiral outward. what is to come, I have no doubt. Here's the bottom. I've reached my end. I haven't fought them. I'm dead my friend.

It's all a lie, nothing's right. no need to fight. There's nothing here, except a keg of beer. Your little girl, the apple, the pearl, Has gone away. but won't come back. Not another day. the things she did and got into, She wishes she could undo. but it hasn't happened, That's not the end. she spends her nights crying, Wishing, feeling, she were dying. she's sorry for everything, But she does have feeling. she doesn't know where she went wrong. She's sorry it went on for so long. she tried to turn it all around. But everything she built up, just fell down. she tried to change, But she felt caged. she couldn't stay, Not that way. I just don't know what to do, Everyone plays me for a fool. what can I do? All I ever wanted was to be loved, not pushed and shoved.

I gaze at my past, it's like a movie screen my feelings torn right at the seams The person in my memories can surely not be me The girl inside, who I used to be is buried deep inside of me I keep her hidden, never to be seen because I HATE who I was I regret that I only have one life maybe I could do it right If I fall asleep one night and start all over again. I look in the mirror and all I see is the little girl who stands before me But the little girl cries out. wanting to be a part of me. I have left that one I hated. but she lives, as I have stated. Deep inside, never to come out. now I rarely hear her shout. As I try to remember my youth I can't believe it's all the truth. The person that I see the one I used to be Can surely not be me.

I've been used and abused, kicked down and pushed around. Now i'm going to stand my ground, stand tall, look down and laugh at you all! You try to look cool, you only look like a fool. Trying so hard to make me cry, I don't understand why. Cuz I have self confidence? something you lack. You look so dense, I won't crack. Those hateful words won't make me cry, don't you know why? Because i'm to good for you. no matter what you do. Still think you're cool? you stupid fool!

I did not lie, yet you still said good bye. I did everything for you, even if my love is not true. Can't we wait and see? I really, really want ti to be. Why must you eun away, when you begged me to stay? Don't you understand? I want you to be my man. You said you wouldn't break my heart, so you just tore it apart. All I ask for, is one more chance before, you close that door. You said you wouldn't, I thought you couldn't. I guess I was wrong, I thought I was more strong. Why did you say you love me, when obviously you didn't want us to be? You played me like a fool, a needle and spool. you strung me along, why did you make this game so long? All I want to know is, why? why did you say good bye, Just to make me cry? and all of these things, For a summer fling? or someone to fuck? Just your luck, you met me. Your baby.

I would take the stars, just to be in your arms. I would steal the moon, just to hear you say," I love you". What must I do, to prove to you. MY love is true. I'm sorry for what I did, I am still a kid. but i'm ready to give my love, And to be loved. what I did was wrong, I know it hasn't been that long. but it's far gone, You must believe in me how can I help you see? That I am ready. why didn't you stay by my side? you just had to hide. You say your love is true, but look what you do. You run away. WHY didn't you stay? If you truely love me, then why don't you believe, That I can stay true? through and through. Is it really true? for me and for you? We are no more? the one person I love and adore, Has closed the door.

I'm sorry to say, that I can no longer play your game. You've turned me into something, that I do not want to be. And someone that I am not, I am a total fake. Nothing about me is real, alas, I am not happy with myself. And it's all because of you. just one more thing, That I hope you will do. respect me for who I am, Because I am who I am, I AM ME! I hope you see, no matter what you do. That i'm getting back to me. a juggalette, that's who.