Uniquely ME's blog: "RANDOM!!"

Is there ever a time in your life when you feel you should change your perspectives entirely? If so, what would be the reason? Is it wrong if it is for someone? This man, I feel so deeply for. I could fall in love with him in a heartbeat. I am not me when I am around him, but the person I long to be. He brings out in me, all the things I desire.. and so easily. He just makes me the real me. He completes me. Like the other half of my soul. There is one thing, that stops all these feelings. He left me. But for all this, should I take him back? He asks for so much, yet so little.

How do things get to where they are? How is it that things can seem alright, then go ssooo wrong? And without you even noticing? Why is it that at that pivital moment, it doesn't seem to matter? Is it really that seconds after it all goes down, the saying becomes true? Do we really miss them, or the thought of them? Can you really care for someone though you are in love with another? Or is it all the years you spent together, laughing, driving aimlessly, giving advice and just being there? But it all comes down to, how can you even think of hurting when you knew it was coming? And is that the reason you just let them go? Or is it just that you are tired of life. Tired of fighting, tired of thinking and feeling. Tired of being here. Tired of worrying, tired of everyone liking you and no one loving you.Tired of thinking you are right, just to have everyone say it won't work. Do you just let go? Because you know you can't beat the odds? Or because you know you aren't worth it.

A guy wrote this in his myspace. and it should make u think I know way too many really beautiful girls who think they don't look good... It hurts... because it's our fault, guys I mean. We make girls feel like they have to be perfect. You know what I mean, flat stomach, huge boobs, round booty, long legs, big lips, and on top of all that, they have to dress like a whore, and be one as well... nobody can measure up to that... and its not fair... because nobody should have to. The little imperfections are what make people special. If everyone was perfect the world would be so boring, variety is what makes life interesting. So guys, stop making girls have to live up to your, I'm sorry, our... deluded fantasy visions of perfection. Stop acting like boys and start being men... realize that women don't exist to fufill our sexual desires. Stop talking to them solely to get with them, be nice to them because you want to be their friend, not because you want to hook up with them. Say nice things about them not to flatter them in hopes that you'll get some, but because you know they like to hear them. In short... we need to grow up and stop acting like freakin retarded little boys girls who agree repost. and to the few guys who have balls and agree also repost

I feel myself sinking.. sinking to the place that is so low,so unimaginable for most,uncomprehendable for all outside this crazy mind of mine. It drags me further down with each passing moment, moments of horror,inexplicable pain.... As I fall I stretch out my arms, try to reach the top...but my grasp is weak...i slip down..scratching and clawing...the bottom is near..

Well hell, life sucks, but you move on from the pain and devistation, don't you? Some people don't, they like to hold on to things that are so far gone. I have, but not anymoreDreams don't always come true, and no matter how hard you wish and pray it just doesn't change. So will it never come true, or can time really heal all wounds Does fate and/or destiny really exist, can hatchets truely be burried,can time really tell?

Life, what is it about life? It sucks and yet we continue down the road it leads us by. I have this saying i've always admired about life... Only through the darkest insanity can one ever find the purest wisdom. And as i have continued my darkest paths of life, I have found this to be more true than I could ever have imagined. Yet we all follow this thing called life, to unforgiving twist and turns.But some how we prevail. Why is this? Is there some force guiding us back to the beaten path? Or is it the road less traveled that we should follow? All i want to know is.. why when we come together collectivly as a society do we forget what we all know is true in our hearts? Why is it that singly we have a stroger voice in the subjets that matter most to us all? Can we ever prevail as a society when every time we come together as one voice we lose our moral standing. Will women ever be equal,will the segregated races ever be free? Will we ever be a united free world.

Life is an interesting thing. No one seems to understand it, yet we all live it each day. Bearing the burdons and awaiting the wonders it has placed before us.It has conformed us, yet we all strive to be individuals. But we all still have the same basic needs. It is those needs wich we despise eachother for.We all just want to love and to be loved. But at what costs and who's expense???It is these realizations that have adjusted my way of thinking in my life.I can no longer continue with the path I have so desperatly wanted. I thought that I was not traveling that path alone, but I was mistaken. Years behind I had a follower, but I stepped off that path to follow anew. I only hope that this change of venue will apease all of those that set back my follower.