LURCH's blog: "Poems"

Serenity We are not strangers if we meet We come around our selves to greet Time is for us a world apart Easy to make a work of art Experience is now to come The call for me to feel at home At home with me just who I am For this I really give a damn Let us now begin to live A life, not fake, but to give The emotions that are not to cap To relax now and take a nap To see the world through open eyes The eagle soars through sunlit skies No clouds to hinder on his way The darkest night turns to day The future now we do behold A safe harbor out of the cold To acknowledge now a world without Darkness that causes us to pout WORDS A poet I will always be To tell of thoughts of you and me To say just what is on my mind Lusty now; and then be kind To cause excitement with a word To fly; oh my! Free as a bird Think of me when you’re alone To sink in lust just like a stone Hunger for the physical side To be filled up without my pride Help me reach this lofty goal Bodies like yours to have to hold I reach out and what do I find? A soul like mine to pass the time Help me to quell this fire so hot With touch and feel untie the knot I know you’re there, how do you feel? I am here and I am so real I wait each day with baited breath A reply to get before my death I die each day to rise again Your reply frees my soul from pain I crave your words, joy divine They lift my spirits and pass the time

All color left my world the day my last and worst betrayal was ripped from my blackened heart. In your hands my heart turned to ash and dust, returning to the earth from whence it came. Forsaken, betrayed, and soul shattered, I lay dreaming in black and white, oblivious with no energy to fight and no emotion left to care, while knowing that trust must be earned, not handed out randomly. Knowing only despair and loneliness, I dreamt of everything that I will never have and desires that will never touch my soul. Alas, unconditional love only comes in technicolor dreams. While forever trapped in my world of black and white dreams, I feel an empty hole gapping in my chest that oblivion's hand-maiden takes me into the stillmess of the nothingness of my life.

Its' at this point we search deep in our minds,and be open to Changes,Choices and Challenges and stop being so blind. We need to make some changes in this limited time we have ,decide what we want out of our lives. The good or the bad. It's time for different choices. For all things to be like new. Our lives need some thing different a more positive point of view. At times changes are challenges and we become a bit dismay. With God and Jesus on our side look at the progress we've made. Now,give praises to the Lord for His undeserving grace and Love, Cause now with Changes,choices and challenges we can all rise above..

LET us quarrel for these reasons: You detest the salt which seasons My speech . . . and all my lights go out In the cold poison of your doubt. I love Shelley . . . you love Keats Something parts and something meets. I love salads . . . you love chops; Something goes and something stops. Something hides its face and cries; Something shivers; something dies. I love blue ribbons brought from fairs; You love sitting splitting hairs. I love truth, and so do you . . . Tell me, is it truly true?

The last thing I expected was for you to walk into my life. I never would've imagined it, never would've imagined it. I shrugged you off like nothing at first, I didn't even care. I shouldn't get into this, shouldn't get into this. So I take a little detour, go down a different road Take the path less chosen, forget about that heavy load Keep my eyes set forward, I can never try to look back Never turning or stopping, never getting off track. I hesitated at first, but you somehow let yourself in. I didn't push you back out, didn't push you back out. You're more than I expected, and everything felt right. I don't feel anymore doubt, don't feel anymore doubt. So I take a little detour, go down a different road Take the path less chosen, forget about that heavy load Keep my eyes set forward, I can never try to look back Never turning or stopping, never getting off track You had to go away, but that isn't going to change things. I know that we're both strong, know that we're both strong. Every chance I get, I'll make plans to come see you. I won't make the absence long, won't make the absence long. So I take a little detour, go down a different road Take the path less chosen, forget about that heavy load Keep my eyes set forward, I can never try to look back Never turning or stopping, never getting off track. I'm coming to see you soon and I can already feel your kiss. I can't wait until I hold you, can't wait until I hold you. I'll travel the 560 miles, I don't care that roads are closed. I can find my way to you, find my way to you. So I take a little detour, go down a different road Take the path less chosen, forget about that heavy load. Keep my eyes set forward, I can never try to look back Never turning or stopping, never getting off track. I felt so much compassion, drowning in a sea of love I'm so glad that I'm here, so glad that I'm here. Everything inside feels light, enchanted by your soul "I love you" lingers in my ear, "I love you" lingers in my ear. So I take a little detour, go down a different road Take the path less chosen, forget about that heavy load. Keep my eyes set forward, I can never try to look back Never turning or stopping, never getting off track. You took it all away without warning, I didn't see it coming. I feel my chest start throbbing, feel my chest start throbbing. I can't let you go like this, I've already let you in too far. My heart just won't stop sobbing, heart just won't stop sobbing. So I take a little detour, go down a different road Take the path most chosen, carry that heavy load. Can't keep my eyes set forward, I keep trying to look back. Always turning and stopping, always getting off track. And I'll never trust these roads again.

Just a few lines to tell you how I feel, A few lines to show I care. But what good will these few lines do If you are never there? These words will just be written Never noticed or read All my feelings down on paper... All the thoughts that fill my head. Whispered softly to myself So no one else can hear Only I can see what's written, Only I can feel my tears. Shutting out the world around me Only I can hear my cries, Writing my feelings down on paper My heart starts to die. I'm dying inside But no one seems to know, I'm trying to hold on... But I'm slowly letting go.

I was consumed By a life that I made Destined to crash Beat up and bruised By the flashbacks of my own past I tried to hide away Till I heard you say Lovely traces fall behind you Turn around and you will see Lovely traces to remind you Everything that you've been through What it took to get you to me All my mistakes Regrettable choices I'd like to forget But somehow you make All that I wasted useful again I thought I fell from grace But you can't erase The lovely traces behind you Turn around and you will see Lovely traces to remind you Everything that you've been through What it took to get you to me I lost my direction 'Cause I couldn't see What a beautiful picture You would complete in me

What If What if tomarrow my time on earth came to an end, would I feel it was wasted, or just just a new chapter for me to begin. Would I know I was the best parent that I could be, or would I be saddened at what I had to see. Would I know I was the best spouse that I could be, or would I think I was too needy. Was I always there when a friend was down, or was I too busy to be around. Did my mother ever need me but I did'nt care, I did'nt think it mattered that I was not there. Did my Father ever try to spend a little extra time, just to show how much he loved me, but I was just too blind. Did my brother really need me, but all I did was judge, not taking time to hear what the real problem was. Why is it when we realize, it's always too late, what really is important in life and that the rest can wait. We are always in a hurry, to try and get ahead, when what we should be doing is usually at home instead. Family and Friend's make it all worthwhile, they're what make you get through one more day with a smile. Don't spend so much time worrying what other's may think, do they even know you, gee let me think. Before it's too late, let that someone special know, yes they are truly cherished, let you're real feeling's show. Try to be there when they need for you to be, don't think of it as a burden, dont think poor me, thank god that they need you for without them where would you be. So, don't stop and wonder, "If tomarrow my time on earth came to an end, would I feel it was wasted or just a new chapter for me to begin........ Tammy Fessenden© July 1998 also known as Rdtailhawk

Tell me what will it matter after I've lived and died. If I had owned all the silver & gold, But I have cheated and lied. If all my fancy clothes came tailor made or a second hand store is where I would trade. It makes no difference as to what I would wear,It matters only If I had loved and cared. If I had lived alone in a mansion with golden pot and lids or in a shack with no money with just my wife and seven kids. Yes,theres' more to life then just living. It's more about loving and unselfishly giving. So it's whether I choose to be lost forever, or in Jesus' Love I abide. This is what makes the difference after I've lived and died... If you read and liked plz don't rip unless you ask me first.. Thank you!!

As I look outside the window,The sky is three shades of blue with cotton ball clouds. A warm wind gently bends the top of the trees. The sparrow fly and dot the sky in small crowds. The plain glass window is glaring in the sun, Across the yard of dying grass on scattered mounds. A large plane is gaining height beyond the trees, A hawk is diving at a rabbit on the ground. Outside the window makes me look inside my mind. And reminisce about the loving life I had. It give me pleasure when I know my family is happy. It's their happiness without me that makes me sad. The different moods I catch when looking out the window. It's a cliche' that I'll keep near until I die- "The things in life that have the power to make us happy. Are the things that have the power to make us cry". Warren. If you read please ask to rip if you want it ..