She didnt know
The sparkle in her eyes lite up the room
The laughter she let out freed your soul
The smile on her face shined brightly
The way she said her words gave you hope
You knew she was the one and only
you knew how much you loved her
knew life without her would not be living at all
but you never told her.
the sparkle went out
the laughter stoped
the smile dimmed
and her words were without meaning
because she didnt know.
Yet I sill love you
You lie!
You tell me you love me
You are a cheater
a person capable of tearing out my heart
I knew what kind of person you were
I still fell hard for you
I love you unconditionally
you hurt me
tell me what you think I want to hear
you give me false hope
I fell under your spell
I cant fight the hold you have over me
I let you hurt me , abuse me
I cant help it
I love you and I would let you destroy me
I dont even know why
Hoping, praying that I didnt make a sudden move
that will set you off
you sit there reading the paper
you yelled at me again this morning
you screamed and hit me
brusing my tender skin
leaving yet another excuse to be told
Then you sat down
waiting on your meal
No apology
No kisses or saying you are sorry
NOTHNG
It is ok I didnt expect it anyway
I am used to it
I am immuned to it
you make me cry
you make me hurt all over
I dont know why I stay
Maybe I am afraid no one will love me again
But this is not love
I had reather be dead then to feel like this
I stand there trembling
Barely able to breath
terrified you will glance my way
not knowing what you are thinking
one moment you will be sweet and gentle
having me believe everything is ok
The next moment a spark will set off
it turns you into a fire storm out of control
I used to love you
But now I dont feel anything but numbness
my heart is cold and barely alive
barely beating
I hate you despise you
you are despicable
EVIL
but I scream at myself
why do I stay with you
why must I endure this pain
I do not even know!
Cold Piece of Stone
It is a cold piece of stone
with nothing but words
No meaning to life
no personal touch
Just words put togehter by a stranger
It says the date It says My name
no thoughts no quotes
Not loved by many
Not in memory of anything special
no flowers were put by it
no tears were shed for it
my cold stone stands there meaningless
as it mirrored my life
