lukeyal's blog: "Poem - Venom"

Failing life for yesterdays triumphs, chasing death for fears of tomorrow, caught in a loop of frozen resentment, doughting the goals i never concede. I relish the glory of self mutilation, defacing the bearer of honour and pride, sunk to the depths of darkness and evil, an old timber tomb of solitude and pain. The scars i wear of hurt and betrayal, I brandish my heart as proof of this life, the cold coursing flow of poisonous venom, bile and blood both clotted with time.

from the depths of my aching heart, ive longed 4 u in my life, the sweetest of smiles and deepest of soul, a picture of beauty, a person so pure, a woman of essence i truely adore, how sweet the memory of every glance, the look in your eyes that strips me bare, kneading my pain with subtle caress, peeling each layer down to the core, with every touch im pleading for more. you have opened my eyes and shown me love, ive long forgotten yet longed to have, each breath i take is to speak your name, you bring a smile to my lips of that im sure, to live out our dreams on a distant moor.

the torment, the pain, the unecsapable web of dissapointment, the ghosts of unforgotten past, clawing at my flesh, leaving its mark and drawing blood like a thirsty vampire, the inner faces of silient agony, climbing to the surface, fighting my own demons, wanting to rid, but ceasing to feel, the unrepenting guilt swallowing me up and chaining me down, the cold stench of death of suffering burning my skin, holding on to the pain to remind me that im still here, still breathing the air that once before cleansed my soul, the thick smog of tretchery waiting at every crossroads, waiting to pounce like a panther in the dead of night, how long til i greet your presence and share our dreams, how long til we stare fear in the face and laugh at failiure, how long til we look upon our loved ones, together once more!

I awake in a shroud of confusion, my body unable to resist your subtle whisper, the gentle pursuasion of ur tender touch, i long to more from this numbed slumber, to allow my senses to absorb your every breath, for our bodies to levitate into a mass of hypnotic passion, to taste your soft delicate skin, to grasp this feeling of untainted contentment, the sweet odour of your perfume arousing my every pour, the shimmer of your eyes embracing my very soul, weak and paralised to act under ur imense beauty, far from reality and near emotional colapse, you are the reason. you are the wonder. you are my all!

through the rays of the suns warm breath, through the hours of misguided madness, i feel for your presence and long for your touch, your fingers of soft persuasion caressing my pain, freeing me from these chains of torment, releasing me from this burden so cruel, My diary of madness and log of impurity, captured in a thread of heart felt memories, your face of innocence breaking through my armour, storming my walls and allowing me to feel, to feel the magic of love and the wonder of life, your mirage captured in the glare of tomorrows haunts, if time is my healer, why are my cuts so fresh? if my sins are forgiven, why cant i forget? Luke (",)x

The flash of distant past, long been a distant memory, chills of agony and pain, like hot needles of rain. The fresh wave of guilt, the new found torture, can i not forget, can u not forgive? the crack of societies whip, seeking my misfortunes, uncovering my sins, and punishing me.... again! old sounds of terror, old faces of yesteryear, clawing at my flesh! burning through my soul.

The flash of distant past, long been a distant memory, chills of agony and pain, like hot needles of rain. The fresh wave of guilt, the new found torture, can i not forget, can u not forgive? the crack of societies whip, seeking my misfortunes, uncovering my sins, and punishing me.... again! old sounds of terror, old faces of yesteryear, clawing at my flesh! burning through my soul.

the image is getting clearer... the face of innocence and purity... ur beauty shining through the darkest of dreams, the dreams of relentless torment and agonizing pain, ur face washes down the horrors to prevail serenity, u radiate with an inner peace i hunger for, each and every breath u take is echoed through my soul, the warmth of ur flesh taking over my senses, out of my depth i long to hold u close and feel ur passion.

I lay you down on a bed of whispers, takin in ur beauty and breathing in your soul, caught in the gaze of your wonderous eyes, the softness of your lips suffocating me, the delicate contours of your face penetrating me, your eyes of fire warming my very heart, as you close your lips in passionate approval, i take your flesh into my mouth, tasting your satisfaction and opening you to all around, the subtle caress of your body against mine, awakening my senses and allowin me to breath again.