You say you love me but I say
if you did
you wouldn't treat me bad.
Is all I have with you premature love?
Is all I have with you a lot of false hope?
That's not what I want.
I want a REAL relationship
with a REAL man
not a poor excuse for companionship
with someone who lives in my memory,
and not a half hearted attempt at love with a man
I have to share with someone I never even met!
I want reality and honesty and quality time
and what do I get?
Dreams, Deceit and a two minute phone call when
YOU get around to it
Dammit
can't you understand that I am
NOT a plaything?
Can't you understand I have
feelings and needs too?
I'm too young for such impressions!
But pain and passion made this reaction
NOT ignorant youth
~SM written 1-3-89
