just when i think things are good, and gonna stay that way it blows up in my face. i guess for the most part, things are okay now.. but it still bothers me that i put my all into something && get a slap in the face afterwards. sometimes i just want to go back to the way i was. jaded, and anti-social. but then again, i wasn't completely happy with that person.. but it sure as hell saved me from a lot of hurt and drama. sometimes i just want to give up on life in general. but i can't do that to the people i love and care about. they're what keeps me going.. i just don't know how much longer i will be able to deal with this shit. *sigh* i just want things to go back to the way they were when they good.. is that really too much to ask for?? 
