On July 9, 2007at 5:35 am I dreamt about him!
I was debating on whether I wanted to share anything about him or about my dream. I have come to the conclusion that this is a part of me that makes me, “me!” My feelings, and way of thinking revolve around him – it might sound a tad absurd, for I am young – and I do confuse myself, but that originally comes with my idea that I think TOO much! I’m concerned in avoiding mistakes, although I do know that making mistakes is a process I definitely need to go through in order to learn- however, if I can make a smart decision at the time I will embrace it! lol I have already made too many mistakes – things that I’m ashamed of – but I only know that after experiencing them, I WILL NOT take that route again! Making myself into a person I want to be.
I will not explain my dream thoroughly – for it is something I hold dearly! (Since, it is the first dream I’ve had of him after he left!) L I have thought about him so much that time going by just seems so depressing. – I literally need to keep myself on the multitaskable level in order to not think of him. How sad is that! Lol He means so much to me – and that dream I had proves that within – every touch, the sound of his voice, and the surrounding area – felt so real, making me think that, without a doubt, “he thinks of me!” You know, as if he was really by my side. His feelings for me in the dream were really solid-[he let me know that he loves me, and would like to be with me] AHHHH *screams* and it’s something so wonderful I hope there could be some reality waiting to break out- into my future. For those reasons I won’t share the full contents of my dream I feel like it’s something to cherish and hold onto!
My mood has not been at its best ever since he left – but this dream with no doubt has my spirits raised!
Call it my fantasy world or what you will – but my feelings for him have always been strong!
Love is out there it only takes time.
He knows that I care for him, maybe too much!
*I hope to see you soon, I miss you* CF
