AMAZINGA's blog: "One Wish..."

f life were but a dream, my Love,
And death the waking time;
If day had not a beam, my Love,
And night had not a rhyme, --
A barren, barren world were this
Without one saving gleam;
I'd only ask that with a kiss
You'd wake me from the dream.

If dreaming were the sum of days,
And loving were the bane;
If battling for a wreath of bays
Could soothe a heart in pain, --
I'd scorn the meed of battle's might,
All other aims above
I'd choose the human's higher right,
To suffer and to love!

by Thomas Moore

 

 

'Twas a new feeling - something more
Than we had dared to own before,
Which then we hid not;
We saw it in each other's eye,
And wished, in every half-breathed sigh,
To speak, but did not.

She felt my lips' impassioned touch -
'Twas the first time I dared so much,
And yet she chid not;
But whispered o'er my burning brow,
'Oh, do you doubt I love you now?'
Sweet soul! I did not.

Warmly I felt her bosom thrill,
I pressed it closer, closer still,
Though gently bid not;
Till - oh! the world hath seldom heard
Of lovers, who so nearly erred,
And yet, who did not

I am not sorry for my soul
That it must go unsatisfied,
For it can live a thousand times,
Eternity is deep and wide.

I am not sorry for my soul,
But oh, my body that must go
Back to a little drift of dust
Without the joy it longed to know

What do you tell a heart that just won't listen anymore? How can you wipe a tear that doesn't fall? It was always the small things that had mattered most to me, but for some reason its hard to see what really matters at all anymore. I spent most of my adult life searching for that someone who would stay at my side and always know that no matter what everything would be alright. So what has changed? Maybe nothing at all, but perhaps everything. The beautiful thing about the mind is that it can change, but is that always good? The things that a person can believe in for so long can change because life has a funny way of leaving everlasting impressions on us. To achieve happiness may mean doing something that you know will hurt someone even your own self, and in knowing this fact will you still chose to do it? Love, oh love... now that is a topic...lol! Why? Whats the point in the end there will always be disappointment, and someone will always be hurt. So when you really think about it love is really all about forgiveness. Am i rambling? The answer is ... Yes! Does it matter? The answer is .... no! Sure of course i'm writing this so people will read maybe even comment, but whats the point? Its not gonna change me or you. You know what really cracks me up about people? You chat or talk and seem really interested in one another then after one or a few meetings you barely talk to each other. Yea sure we all got our reasons and/or excuses. Oh yea i'm great at those! I really have no point that i'm trying to prove or emotion that i'm trying to express... I'm just.... Whatever!

I'm lookin at you lookin at me souls intertwined lost as can be no one else around there is no sound but two hearts beat as one you take a deep breath mine is gone warmth of our bodies together your strength my soft touch never wanna let go no words spoken yet so much is said Fantasy fills our minds is it yours or is it mine pleasure all over and throughout kisses are delicious passion is no doubt my body is trembling with every touch pulsating muscles wrapped around you nibbling my bottom lip no way are we through grabbing the sheets posting against the wall can't get enough i want it all close my eyes when your deep inside arching my back tightening my thighs bodies glistening with sweat you got me all warm & wet with one arm you pull me up i wrap my legs around and you grab my hips for a good pump nails in your back my hand thru your hair a kiss on the neck a lick of the ear its getting rough the end is almost here the ravaging has taken course our eruption is complete we fall over tired and beat with lost gazes both have smiles on our faces me and you you and me satisfied definitely!!

At the end of the day when nothing could have gotten any worse. I stop and think. No nothing could get any better. I have you in my life. Everything that has gone wrong dissapears and I can rest easy. Knowing that, my life feels complete. I couldn't ask for anything else. Everyday I wake up I know it's one day closer to being with you. I have dreams of our future. An eternity of love. An everlasting bond thar can never be broken. A paradise that becomes reality. When we come together, the world is going to take a step back and just be amazed by us. As well as I. I want to be the man that stands by your side at every moment that you need me. I will be the man that goes to the battle of life with you and stand at your front line. There will never be anything that stands in my way when it comes to my babygirl. Our lives might change but my love for you never will. When i'm with you my heart speaks so fluent. It's a voice i have never heard before and its hard sometimes to translate. Sometimes its hard to understand myself and thats why i'm so speechless. I have to let all my past go and let my heart speak for itself. It's voice is so strong and so sure of what it wants that I cant fight it anymore. I lost the battle and I'm not afraid to admit it. When I look deep inside those beautiful blue eyes of your I get taken away. There is a story behind those eyes. It's a story that I could get lost into everyday. A book that I could never put down. A book I would never put to the side. Its an amazing story. I see the story of us and the future that is getting written everyday. Babygirl I want you to understand that this is everlasting. This is fate. Your what I want and more than I could have ever asked for. I love you more than life itself. written by: Daryl Smith

How do we as people spend our lives? Do we go out & make things happen, or do we sit waiting for things to happen to us? Good Questions...Huh???!!! Well all I know is my life. At first I flew by the seat of my pants! I got out there & grabbed life by the horns, and did what I could to get the Full Experience!!! I was an Adventurer!!! Then as I got older I realized ...Everything & Everyone had a Price!! The question was..."What was my price?" So I slowed down to take a good look around....A Good Look! I realized my Price is Happiness!! Everything & Everyone that has ever made me Happy had come at a Price....and that Price was Time!! My happiness is always a short lived one...No matter what or whom it is. After awhile it makes you wonder...What is your True Purpose? I'm starting to believe mine is somewhat of a Muse! I'm here to Inspire & Help people with different parts of their Lives!! From each of these people I take a Lesson...a Greater Knowledge that is taken into me. It lays Dormit until it's Time to be Passed on!! So I sit & wait for things to happen to me...I sit & watch the World around me...It LIVES, BREATHES, & BUILDS Experiences... I sit & look at pictures and Remember... I hear songs & Memories come Flying Back... I look at Myself in the Mirror... Who is this Woman?? I've seen this face & body so many times...It's so Familiar & yet so Different!!! So many changes and yet the question remains.... "Who is she?" ..."What's my Destiny?" Is there something or someone out there that my Life will be Remembered for....Long after I'm Gone? Please Tell Me Someone.... What's this Life For?!

Its Over and Done... We are no Longer One... You Replaced Me & Moved On... I Finally was Able to Let You Go!!! So why can't I Fully be Free... I'm still Haunted by our Memories... Once upon a time i was Happy... I was such a Fool to ever Believe!!! A Fairy-Tale and Blinded Bliss... Started by Words and Kindness... Followed by a Journey greeted with a Kiss... How was i to know we would end up Like This!!! I Gave you Everything when i gave you my Heart... Forever with me despite us being apart... Always on my mind even from the very Start... I was your Lady and you were my Knight!!! I gave you my Word and Stood at your Side... When bended knee & asked me to be your Bride... Hope in Hearts & Stars in Eyes hand in hand Dreams were built and started our life & took it in Stride!!! But as Always everything good must end... I lost you as my Companion... I lost my Best Friend... Your Love wilted like Roses and Died!!! You left me Lost & Alone... Broken Dreams Longing for my Home... All you could say was its not you it was me... You have alot to offer and I'm Sorry!!! One day i'll be Brave and try again... A Man will find my Broken Heart on a dirt road bend My Diamond in the Ruff he will start to Mend... He'll Be Everything & More it will be Him I Adore!!! You were Lucky to have me for a moment in time... You abused my heart & mind treated my love as a toy you could use and unwind... Well ha-ha the Joke is on you i'm Standing Tall!!! I've found my Smile though its been awhile... My Beauty is Shining thru though you tried to Diminish it never again will you hurt me... I Will Love again and Very Proudly!!!

If i had one wish What would it be??? Eternal Happiness... You and me One night one star Why is it you're so bright??? I wonder who you are... My internal guiding light Why do i wish with my mind shouldn't it come from my heart??? prefer reason than to be blind... I should have known from the start If i had one wish what would it be??? a better life for you & me... Eternal Happiness