Bits and Pieces wishes it were raining's blog: "omg could things get worse"

heartbroken once again why does it hurt so much thats it i give up i can never seem to do anything right why do you insist on pushing me away your not the only option your really not

so from passed experience usually things get worse for me before anything gets better....and this time wasn't any different so thursday i went to check on my water dragon before going to the funeral home and i found him dead.....my mushu is gone some week of vacation i got..... instead of relaxing and sleeping in and taking it easy...i got to cry and cry and cry some more

Ok so this week has been pretty shitty.....no sooner do i get a weeks vacation, do i get told my grandfather's brother has passed away. And im not mad at all that i have spent my vacation driving my grandparents back and forth from the hospital. It just kinda bites i was looking forward to relaxing and sleeping in and taking it easy. So tomorrow is the funeral home and friday is the actually funeral...so i appologize a head of time if im not on much the next couple days. In a way im glad he has passed. No more suffering for him. And i know he is in a better place now. It just sucks that he had to spend he's last few weeks on earth in a hospital, tied to the bed under 24hr watch. No one should have to go through that. He is and will forever be terribely missed. He was like a second Nonno (grandfather). Ti Amo e sarai mancanto tanto Patino R.I.P

.....it'll get worse its still snowing there losing 4-2 and its almost the end of the second period and im still not in his arms :(

ok so the weathers horrible it hasn't stopped snowing since last night and they are announcing ice rain too the habs are already losing and their not even 5 minutes into the first period and im sitting here wishing i could be in a certain someone's arms but knowing damn well i cant be but from experience things will probably get worse :( wohoo for me well hope everyone else is having a better day then i am