i have come to realization that you cant make people happy that dont want to be happy no matter how hard you try. the trick is to realize this before you come unhappy yourself. im still trying to figure out whether i saved myself in time or not. ohh well guess i should have stayed inside my shell was doing quite well not caring for nooone but my daughter and me. well guess im out of my shell and i enjoyed caring bout someone it felt good even so didnt work how i wanted. guess time to look for someone else to make me happy. im acception applications here so take a number ladies and ill be in touch lol