AJ's blog: "Now what to think?"

A molevolent anger fleeting images of freedom. Timed bliss never enduring. Peace leaves in its wake agony. Another pill for a moment of pleasure. Why don't good feelings come without a cost? They do but i don't know if I could take the feeling of such loss a second time. Will you join me on this journey? Dare I leave? Questions and uncertainty cost more than life itself. Live, love, lament, lost and left. So begins another epic sojourn into a greater existence. Dare I seek utopia once more? I think i've wandered into a new world without knowing. Experience has readied me this time around. I see more now that I was blind to before. I will not walk blindly into this like a lamb to the slaughter so many times we have done this before. I can't hurt worse than I already have. Solace

MWAHSIES!!! You're so beautiful. When i see you it gets harder to breathe. My pulse quickens my body loosens and relaxes you make me feel more than just good i feel whole. You're what my being was lacking the second half of an incomplete soul. You make me more than whole. So much more and i have never had anything or anyone who has meant so much to me. You give and make me so much more than the average ordinary man. It's because you are extraordinary in every way. A living miracle that happens to me day and night and has blessed me in so many ways.

Mere words cannot elate my hearts true steel. A feeling so wonderous one person alone may find it hard to express but wonderful to feel. Such a strong spirit does our love posess much greater than mountain or fierce midnight gale. These words that I write reveal little of what my actions will show and as my Finito I give you this. The touch of my fingers light upon your cheek. The brush of my lips as I lay beside you the passion in our closeness my hip against your hip. So intertwined into one our souls shall twist.

To Nicki I love you more as each moment passes. To have you and hold you such a sweet embrace. You brought light to this once dark place. The light of your smile the color of your eyes the pink in your cheeks and always so shy. I'll be yours always to have and to hold till my last dying breath when we have grown old. Even there after when we have passed to lay beside you forever your man. I love you! I better get to sleep. Nothing i write is half as beautiful as you. Sweet dreams pretty baby i love you.

Like a wild wolf ravenous for raw flesh. Bone rending satisfaction as mouths filled with razors leave jagged trails of excrutiating erotic agony. The hunger insatiable, voracious, unappeased. Tricklings lapped lovingly from my lips. The taste lingering reminiscing of feasts yet to come. Prey unhunted, delicacy not yet palleteable. Your luscious ambrosial nape nuzzled notoriously by my life leeching lips.

Beautiful sunrise blinds my eyes like your radiance only with you it's being magnified. Not the sun, nor Nocturnes stellar magnificence rivals your image to my eyes. A million dawns and a million dusks would add up to rival my true loves image in my mind. My everything, my life, my love how can something so perfect exist in such a flawed world. You are perfection. My life, my everything. I love you so much!

This is for my perfect love. Excuisite, desirable, attractive, superb. Striking, unique, flawless, enticing. Rare, unadultured, awe inspiring beauty. Delicate, refined elegance embellished with the prettiest smile. My belle chose. A deity like none other. You are the one I want. All I need. All I ever prayed for. My dear sweet love. I would die happy to have only known your affection. To be it's only object... Heavens Redemption I truly am blessed. I love you more with each breath. My love shall be perpetual, eternaly my unceasing amor. Your hold on my heart amanthine.

First a breeze fans the flame. From flame comes smoke. A smoke so thick suffocating heavy. An unbearable weight. Need water, this thirst can not be quenched. Heat so intense the flame burns through the downpour. Anger burning with the intensity of the sun. What is water to the sun? Nothing, the cycle begins once more. A flames thirst is unique unlike a man in the desert. It consumes all in its path. The thirst of a flame halts only after consuming any and all around it. This flame won't be my end it can't be stopped. I won't burn out, I won't be snuffed out. It will not get the best of me. Let this fury smoulder. In good time this flame shall be put to use not to destroy or cause harm. But to warm those who really matter the most. My light shall be comfort, a requiem of peace. A comfortable glow banishing my own unease.

Love lays low lifes little losses letting light luminate'lusts lows. Let loose leaving long lasting lustre. Let love lift life's letdown's, lance loneliness leaving loathing looking labored. Let love lead lionheartedly leaving long lines lingering, lasting lifetimes. Long lifeless lies looking like loves long lost. Let love last, live, longing luxuries layed low, left to lapse