well. finally. after a few weeks of being wild and crazy. doing stupid crazy shit. i think my world is finally crashing down. i finally came to relize that the girl i want to be with isnt intrested in me. she just wants to come over and spend the nite with me everynite. but really blows my mind. she always come back to my house. but shows no intrest. and when she gets here she fixes her self up real nice. just to set around and talk to me. maybe i stay to fucked up 80 precent of the time to relize she is intrested. and then maybe im right. i wont say anything to her. i enjoy her company. and dont want her to leave and not talk to me. who knows. my mind just wonders. ill figure it all out when i do my nite in jail tonite. maybe... who knows. am i crazy. or is everyone else crazy.
