every time i try to get back at you
i hurt myself even more
...well nothing was supposed to hurt like this
the razors have been used
my emotions have been misused
the pills have been swallowed
deaths path has been followed
if i had any tears left, id cry
if i had any blood left, id bleed and bleed i just want to die
im shaking im so scared, im sweating im so close...
im so close to just ending it all
its always the same.....the same old shit
im tired of crying myself to sleep every night
im tired of hiding my wrists
i just wanted to be loved...
why could you never even pretend?...pretend to love me
all i needed was some encouragement....your doing so well im so proud
all you do is scream and yell YOUR SUCH A LET DOWN!
i know, i know im a let down
im sorry i never meant to be
if only through my eyes you could see
the world i live in, that never gave me a chance
how i hurt, believe me i know im less than dirt
the razor, well it was always there... unlike you
the need for a fresh shedding of blood keeps me going
"why are you still here, if you hate life so much?"
wow your right, what am i still doing here?
i dont deserve to live nor do i want to...
you could always encourage me when it came to quiting...
well now im sitting
ive got the razor
ive got the gun
slice open my veins let me bleed
to my own hate i must feed
put the barrel down your throat
DIE MOTHER FUCKER, pull the fucking trigger CHOKE....
....you wont even know im gone....i always loved you...you could never ever fuckin pretend to love me back
