It amazes me how one can be so consumed with hate and negativity and still survive. How can someone be so judgemental of others and not once look at their own faults, their own ways. They never think about how their hate affects those around them. They don't realize that all that hate can turn something beautiful into ugliness. Another thought how can someone so positive, someone who can bring so much good to the world, let all that negativity and hate change what they are and what they believe. Life begins to feel hopeless with all that hate and negativity floating around in the air, and we just can't help but breathe it in. It seems to smother and consume us until there is nothing left. Until hate and discontent and negativity is all we know or remember. Then it seems you can't find your way back to that beautiful person you used to be. How nice it would be if we could forget all about that consuming fear that holds us here, never letting us move forward, only backwards. The past reminds us of pain and fear, hate and greed and most of all negative thoughts we can't seem to leave behind. It seems to eat away at us until we can't remember that there was once something good in the world. How many people in the world are walking around right now that only know how to look at the negative things in life. There are good things out there and we could be apart of it if we only let ourselves. How can we do this to ourselves. How can we be so content in believing that this pain inside is all there is and will ever be. We need to rid ourselves of the negative people around us. We need to surround ourselves with people who believe in us and have faith that somehow things always get better, usually when we're unaware. It's God's way of telling us he's there and he's watching. That we can go anywhere and do anything if we just believe that it will all work out in the end.He never let's us fall further than his grasp and he never puts anything in front of us to handle alone. We just have believe that he's there to guide us if we just ask him to. The prayers we send up to him never get answered in the way we think that they should. But they do eventually in good timing and with God's careful planning. We just have to believe in him, in ourselves and that there is something better out there for us. We just have to want it enough.
