Today I woke up with a headache took some med and went back to sleep, woke up 2 hours later when my alarm went out feeling much worse, I have so much to do today to feel like I am not a falure and I dont need this fucking headache. I need a job and my plan was to leave warly this morning and go to work force and do some major hunting. so I am writing this to tell myself that I have to figure something out to make me do what I need to do even though I feel like shit. I have been starting to fall into depression sleeping more and feeling like i am ugly a total falure and that is not a good state to be in while searching for a job.
Note to self YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, AND THOUGH YOU DONT HAVE A JOB YOU HAVE NOT GIVEN UP SO YOU ARE NOT A TOTAL FAILURE. STOP BEEING AFRAID TO DO THINGS THAT YOU ARE SCARED YOU WILL GET REJECTED AND JUST DO THEM. TAKE CARE OF YOUR SELF AND START LOVING YOURSELF A LITTLE.