Mr Chainsaw's blog: "My Writing"

From the womb new life is sprung Knowing not from where its come His newborn eyes try to focus On a world so blind, so hopeless Years go by, no longer a boy Out on his own, to find some joy He meets his love, buys a home Feels he'll never be alone. He plants his seed, new life will come. Only to see, she's not the one He moves out, and she hates him still Visits his daughter, always will. More years go on, now old and frail Ex is dead, daughter in jail Now he sees the world, no blindfold on "Bullshit" he whispers, now he is gone.

Overdose is such a bitch Now I've got this fucking twitch A constant reminder for all time Of how I put my life on the line My future could have been lost From my hand that coin was tossed Just because I wanted to fly Just searching for that higher high I did survive but not without harm 'Ever scarred from that shot in my arm Tremors, twitches, shakes and shudders I hate how my heart now flutters Permenant damage to body and mind Dope, bitch-goddess, your thick web I did find I'm glad I survived that horrible night But wounds are forever in shameful sight Gimped for life for that shot that I did What will I tell my wondering kid?

Why do I allow myself to be treated like this? Is she really someone that I would truely miss? I can't take much more of the betrayl The drug I need is not one for sale. I love her, and I tell her so; She says it too, not the same, I know. I want to be with her until the end She loves me, yes, but only as a friend I sit up awake at night, thinking of her; I can not escape her voice, her eyes, her lure. She forgets out plans, forgets to call; I forgive it all, taken that fall... Into love, into her, into hell Not returned, not her type? Just can't tell. Should I just kill myself? End this shit? Or just place it on the shelf? Forget it? I don't know what I should do A riddle without a clue. I want her more with each passing day; Then see her, don't know what to say. How can I compete with those other guys? I treat her better, she wants otherwise. She wants to fuck the guys who lie and cheat; I treat her like gold, I get the friend seat. So I will continue to try, continue to wait; And they maybe one day, I will get that first date

You're gonna drown in the mess you make. Your self, inflicted, hate You turn your back on the friends you lose When they don't follow all your rules. People are what they want to be; They're not lemmings to the sea. Maybe it's time that you looked at yourself. Stop blaming life on someone else.

Forget your ass, you punkass bitch They're gonna find you in a ditch. Bloody, bloated, black and blue, Gonna need dental records to identify you. Why'd you go and fuck me around? Punk me like a fucking clown. Liar, leach, you fucking lump Hair will come out clump by clump I'm tired of being the fool, The example will be you. Beaten, battered, left for dead, I'll kick in your fucking head. I bet the next fucker will stop and think, about your eyeballs in the sink. Never be ripped off again, With blood stains on my hands. At least you death will have meaning, Unlike your life of fucking thieving. Let this be a lesson to all you fuckers, Fuck me over, you'll pay like the others.