mzgogetta's blog: "My Thoughts On Life And Situations Of Life"

1- why is that when u have somethin or someone good you mess it up and always wonder why u constantly gettin hurt n treated bad by the ones who aint shyt and who aint about shyt?? 2-why is it that when u have someone absoulutely perfect for you you break up wit them and it takes you forever 2 realize u had a good one?? why cant you realize it then and stick wit them?? 3-why do bad things happen to good ppl?? 4-why do ppl call u names n say shyt about you when they kno good and damn well they the ones actin like that and not you?? 5-why do niggas and bitches have 2 play games?? 6-why does it matter if ur gay, bi or str8? i mean as long as you happy thats all that matters right?? 7-why do nice guys always have 2 finish last? 8-why do ppl try 2 talk down on others and make them feel bad? is it bc theyre insecure with themselves and they have 2 take someone down wit them? or is it bc theyre jealous?? 9-why do ppl get mad at u 4 talkin 2 their significant other not knowin that the person u talked 2 even had a gurl or a boyfriend? if nething shouldnt they be mad at they bf or gf 4 talkin 2 otha gurls or niggas?? 10-and last but not least why do ppl always say how much u mean 2 them and how much they care about u but never do nething 2 show it??

these are just some questions id like to share and if anyone has answers those would be appreciated also!! 1-is sex that important in a relationship? is it important to the point where if the sex was bad but u was really feelin that person somethin terrible u wouldnt fuck wit em nemore just for that reason alone? 2-why do ppl front or act brand new in front of their ex? i mean hell yall not 2getha and if u done moved on and feelin someone else why u gon act brand new wit that person in front of ya ex? 3-why do ppl claim they grown and dont have time for games yet they be the main mothafuckas actin like a child and be on some childish shyt? 4-why do ppl fuck up good things just to go back to the shitty ones? 5-why do ppl feel the need to lie and lead others on just to hurt them in the end? 6-are looks really that important? i mean what if someone is too cute but they have the most fucked up attitude? would u fuck wit em bc they cute in the face despite they attitude?

all i want is someone who treats me with the love and respect i deserve. all i want is someone who will keep it real at all times no matta the circumstances. all i want is someone who doesnt lie and lead me on. all i want is someone who aint on some childish shyt and games bc i really truly dont have the time for it. all i want is someone who has somethin productive goin on with their lives and who have a good head on their shoulders. all i want is someone who is drama free bc thats also somethin i dont have time for. all i want is someone who will put an equal amount into the relationship instead of me doin everything makin all the effort. all i want is someone who will accept me for me flaws and all. yes i know that love will find you and you shouldnt look bc when you do things go wrong but a lot of the times even when im not lookin i jus meet and attract the worst females!! the ones i meet are childish, on some bullshyt, play games, got drama, lie, and lead me on. im a damn good female and i deserve better then that. i deserve someone who will love me just as much as i love them. i deserve someone who will be respectful and loyal. i deserve someone who will treat me the way i deserve to be treated and not like some dog. hopefully that person is out there bc wit the luck im havin and the ppl im attracting....i seriously doubt it and i dont wanna be that way!

Laying down side by side Arms tight around my waist Fingers running slowly and smoothly... Through my soft, silky hair Whispering sweet something’s in my ear Making me feel like a nubian queen Our bodies slowly and surely turn face to face And when our faces meet... We say we love each other We lean in to kiss... And as my soft, sweet, and juicy lips touch yours... Your hand starts to slowly slip down my pants And my legs start trembling from your warm touch You start going down my thighs And I feel my sweet juices overflowing As you get closer....and closer...and closer I wake up And tears form in my eyes Because I realize That it was all...in...my....dreams

living in a world of hostility constantly hearing negativity is draning and tiring mentally, emotionally, even physically yes i make bad choices and yes i make mistakes but you constantly on my back putting all the blame on me no matter what the situation may be makes me feel like less of a person im tired of feelin like an outsider im tired of bein confined and feeling like i cant come around without you being negative and not even trying to hear me out im tired of all the fighting, arguing, and yelling i just want to be happy and stressfree i want to be able to come and talk to you without you blaming me and not hearing me out i want to be able to come around without me feeling awkward and nobody saying anything hopefully one day this will happen but until then... ill just be living in a dark, dreadful world of hostility dying to get out

yes im human. yes i make mistakes. yes im not perfect. yes ive been in some fucked up situations. im just tired of ppl always judging me and putting me down not only for my sexual orientation but just how i live my life in general. ciarra why arent you in school? whats the problem? yes i was in college and had 4 scholarships and lost them all when i dropped out. i was in a very bad situation so yes i am a college dropout. im not saying im necessarily proud of that either. how do you think i feel when i see all my college friends still in school and doing great? hell some of them even pledged and are now in a sorority. i do plan on going back if not in the fall then in january. i just wish ppl would stop judging me about my decision about college when they dont even know the situation or havent even been in the situation themselves. im also tired of ppl telling me what i cant do. instead of being so negative all the time why dont you try supporting me and my decisions? ciarra youre not ready for this or ready for that. ciarra youre not gonna be able to do this or that. i cant wait to prove everyone wrong. i cant wait to get my own place and maintain it on my own. i cant wait to go back to school and get my degrees so i can be a successful kindergarden teacher. all im saying is that im human and sh*t happens but you have no right to judge or try to put me down bc im sure youve made some pretty bad choices too in your lifetime.