Hotrod's blog: "My thoughts and ramblings"

Ok, so I'm not exactly sure where this is going to go, but I havent blogged in way too long, (not as if anyone will prolly read this anyway) so I figured I would go ahead and jot something down... Since I have no specific agenda here, I think I am going to do what we did in college and that was just "free write"... so if this makes no sense at all, then so be it... here we go...

I was contemplating the other day the fact that after 5 years since my divorce I still have no one special in my life!! This totally sucks ass, and is disappointing to me. I mean, I dont think that I am UGLY by any means, but I know that I am not a drop dead handsome man either... Kinda somewhere in between. I am an intelligent guy, and have a pretty decent head on my sholders, so WHY THE FUCK cant I find someone to share some time with me??  I'm not talking about getting married or anything like that, but someone to hang out with, share my thoughts and feelings with and someone whom I can cuddle up at night near and have some intimate times (and lets be clear, intimate does NOT necessarily mean sex, but could). This sometimes is the thought that keeps my blood boiling, that I may end up with no one to spend the rest of my time on this planet, and yet despite all that, the search continues. I sometimes get all pissy, and say eff women, they are not worth my time anyway, because they are all a bunch of money sucking, two timing, emotionally driven, impulsive wenches. BUT then I think about all the good times that I have had with different women, and know that even if they are all the above formentioned, that those partially negative things are completely outweighed by the positive parts that they can possess... All in all, its just not fair. Women can get almost anyone that they want, and us men who are stuck as the leftovers and discarded, have to be sifted through by the "not so desireables" that havent been sucked up by the Brad Pitts of the world... the SADDEST part is that, those Brad's generally treat those women like objects and pieces of meat. Yet we true GENTLEMEN out there are looked at like, "WTF is wrong with you?" How come you cant find someone...

I think that I have done enough rambling and free writing for today... tune in for the next adventure.. hahaha If there is someone out there who does actually read this leave a comment... Even if its just to say that I am insane... Thanks