Ahyoka's blog: "My thought process"

Last couple of days have been nutz. I don't even know how to go into it... Upset someone that I care about by asking advise from an outsider. Introduced the two, and now everything is ok.... but the outsider doesnt get along with another friend of mine.. so thats a bit on the hard side.. I really care about the person I've been hanging out with for the last month. He makes me so completely happy. I am determined to take it one day at a time. So far, that's been pretty good. Been bonding with a friend.. she's a great person, and I am happy that we are getting close. Tomorrow, I leave for a two week trip to Atlanta, Ga. I am really excited about that... I almost had to miss it, because I came within an ace of getting arrested tonight. I'm still shaking, actually.... I got pulled over for something silly... when I renewed my tags, I was given new plates, and I forgot to put them on the car... so evidentially, the officer was doing a routine check, and my plates came back as defunct, so he pulled me over... and my insurance card has just expired.. havn't had a chance to run over there and get a new one... and guess what.. License is suspended... I got really lucky that he was generous enough to only write a ticket. In the state of Texas, driving without a license is a jailable offence. Great! Just wonderful! I am so thankful that he let me go with a warning and a ticket... holy crap! I have never been to jail, and I really dont intend to start now.. Meanwhile, until I come up with the cash to clear up this ticket and crap.. I can't even drive... not to go to work.. not an emergency.. nothing!

So I am going on vacation...and I leave Waco on Sunday... I am so excited! I love to take a few weeks and just get out of here every now and again. Going to see my friend, Lee, in Atlanta, Ga. I fly in on Monday. I try to get out there at least once a year... I love the ATL... Five days to go and I'm on my way!!! Cant wait!! Only fly in the ointment is that I'm gonna miss someone mad crazy!

I have alot of friends who ride, so when I saw this on a bulliten, it made me cry, and I felt like I had to repost it to the bulliten as well as my blog! God bless all my biker friends and all of their brothers and sisters! "I'm Just a Biker" I saw you hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But you didn't see me put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But you didn't see me playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you change your mind about going into the restaurant. But you didn't see me attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But you didn't see me driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children. But you didn't see me when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you stare at my long hair. But you didn't see me and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves. But you didn't see me and my brothers donate our old coats and gloves to those that had none. I saw you look in fright at my tattoos. But you didn't see me cry as my children were born and having their name tattooed on my skin and in my heart. I saw you change lanes while rushing off to go somewhere. But you didn't see me going home to be with my family. I saw you complain about how loud and noisy our bikes can be. But you didn't see me when you were changing the CD and drifted into my lane. I saw you yelling at your kids in the car. But you didn't see me pat my child's hands knowing he was safe behind me. I saw you reading the newspaper or map as you drove down the road. But you didn't see me squeeze my wife's leg when she told me to take the next turn. I saw you race down the road in the rain. But you didn't see me get soaked to the skin so my son could have the car to go on his date. I saw you run the yellow light just to save a few minutes of time. But you didn't see me trying to turn right. I saw you cut me off because you needed to be in the lane I was in. But you didn't see me leave the road. I saw you waiting impatiently for my friends to pass. But you didn't see me. I wasn't there. I saw you go home to your family. But you didn't see me because I died that day you cut me off. I was just a biker and a person with friends and a family. But you didn't see me. Please share this with your brothers and sisters who ride and everyone who doesn't ride. Let's help make people aware we're there! Ride To Live, Live To Ride

SO I started my day yesterday by running out of gas on the way to work... then got gas and the car still wouldnt start... spent most of my day worrying about a) how am i gonna get home b) whats goin on with my car Jerry Dean and Dennis rescued me.... Then on the way home... we ran out of gas. True story!

Alone with the moon, my spirit cries For the lives of my people crushed by whate men's lies. Taken by force from our mountain home, Robbed of freedom, hearts heavy like stone. The path was long and littered with death, Alone with the wind, my spirit does not forget. The blood of my blood left on that cursed trail, With the young, the old, the fragile, the frail. Forced to march into the unknown, For my proud Cherokee family my spirit now moans. But we did not die, Our souls are still here Walking in spirit on the trail of the tear. MARTHA MOONGAZER BEARD NOV. 2005 I didn't write this.. but i thought it was cool, so i posted it! Kudos to Martha Moongazer Beard!

Sometimes, I lose my way..... but then, I'll remember who the fuck I am, and I stand up tall again. I love my friends. To all of you, God bless you all. Most especially, Cat: You are the best of the best, and if it weren't for you, I dont know where I'd be. Teresa: It's all good, baby! I got a flip top head! Trish: Its good to know you got my back no matter what.. I got yers too James: Anytime I call, yer right there, brother. My third most awesome friend! Annette: Thank you for sharing your husband with me when I need to cry on a shoulder! Jerry Dean: Lets tear it up and burn it down, brother. Dennis: Something sweet...special... one day at a time. I have a whole nother plethora of friends who I did not specifically name. I still love you all, and even if your name isn't on this list, you are still special to me. Sometimes, I lose my way, but you guys... my friends, are the ones who help me remember who the fuck I am... and make me stand tall. Never quit, never give up, never walk away. And here's to the Shiloh Gang!