i'm in theis weird mood. have been lately. i don't what it could be. perhaps the fact that my life is motnotanous. i don't think i spelled that right. anyways. i wake up go to school, to go work, and on mon and weds go to pool. any other day during the week i'm just hanging out somewhere. nothing exciting. i rarely go to concerts or local shows cuz i get disappointed easily. and dating is so f-ed up now-a-days that even that seems like an interview or too free. i want someone who wants me but does want to be up my butt or so distant that i can't even call them to see if they want to go do something. i want a life with my special person. and i want it know. even tho i'm not going to get it for another 5 yrs. i just don't feel like waiting
