Legendary1's blog: "My shit"

In my head the words flow with an intensity Though when I choose to speak They never come out so perfectly The things you so patiently wait to hear Come out in fragments, so unclear Broken sentances With shattered meaning Your longing taunting me From behind misted eyes Again I try to tell you my secrets As before, my voice goes unheard

You pushed me to the bottom So much for the broken promise Of breaking my fall Stare down at me With hate filled eyes Blame me, I’ll take the fault Of our latest demise Your words spoken with passion Now replaced with cold venom Though I try, I can’t fight you My voice nothing more than a hoarse whisper You read my lips, but won’t take in the words Shut me out, you know you love to Take the last of my dignity Just let me up so I can walk away

When did you learn that you were going in circles Life was revolving over and over again The things you thought were over Seem to creep their way back from the long forgotten past Staring back at you through haunted eyes in the mirror All the pain you hid inside Back again for all to see The feeling of belonging lost so long ago Now turned to rage filling the depths of your subconscious The wall you built by rules you follow Now crumbled at your feet The facade you show the world Cracking, the pieces start to tumble You start to realize that you’re broken The pieces you taped together No longer fit so perfectly Your depth perception has diminshed The flame of your insight now just a faint glimmer The parts of you not meant to be seen Now look back from all the eyes that steal a glance your way

No doors left to hide behind The locks all broken My back against the wall Fighting you with all my being My fears begin to splinter The bricks caving frommy barricade With each one I replace I find the latest you managed to take Uneasyness taking hold of me You were never meant to get this close I let you see me as others never could You leave me standing here With no piece of me left to hide

So when does enough become enough? Is it when you give up everything you were to try and make someone elses life better? Is it when you do everything you can to make them happy? Is it when everything you do still isn't enough? It's it when you finally realize that you're just the back up plan. Or is it when you realize you'll never be anything to them? Is the fighting worth it all? Is loving someone worth giving up your world? Is putting more effort in than they do worth it? Is missing the person you were any comfort? I remember the days when I was happy. I remember when I used to smile. I remember when I used to feel like I meant something. I remember when I used to be someone. I remember they day I didn't have it all anymore. And I remember the days when I used to be strong enough to walk away from the thing or the person that took it all away from me.

The flowers grow But our love fades You see, that's why we're apart I just couldn't handle it You seem so far away I can't live like this If there's one thing I miss It has to be your kiss My life feels so wrong I thought I loved you for so long But now I see it wasn't true For if it were I'd still be with you But you see It's over

You were there at my birth On the day I came to this earth You helped me through numerous things in life You lived to receive your congratulations But not your two yountests' graduations I know it wasn't your fault Everyone has to go sometime I just wish I could have said that one last good bye Even though you're gone I know you're in a beautiful place I know you're always with me And feel the pain of your loss