Stormy's blog: "My Rant of the Day"

I’m stuck in a closed minded, self righteous, bible thumping society.  How does this make me the crazy one for believing in my own self enlightenment and not in a two-thousand year old fairy tail?  What if you’re wrong and this is the only life you’ll have?  What if you’ve been to busy trying to please the sky for a place in it when you should’ve been living for the moment with your feet on the ground?  Why not take life by the horns and do what makes your heart happy instead of putting all your faith in a place that might not be there in the end?  You don’t need the sky to forgive you your foibles when you should embrace who you are and live life accordingly.  Treat others as you want to be treated and they should reciprocate.  A smile gets a smile and a frown gets a frown.

It’s not hard to believe in a universe formed out of coincidence when science and liner thinking come into play.  Though I guess it’s easier to put your faith in an outside source.  That way you don’t have to blame yourself when “the shit hits the fan”.  I say we preach self control and to be responsible for our own actions instead of teaching the next generation how to sin and be forgiven in an imaginary afterlife.  If we were raised with the notion that this is the only life we get, maybe we’d hold life and freedom in higher regard.  Then maybe we could all just get along long enough to change things for all of us, not just the people with power or money.  Stupid is as stupid does.

I know I’m not perfect.  I have a lot of things I want to change about myself but they’re things I want to change about myself.  I want to make myself a better person for all who choose to love and or befriend me. I want the self satisfaction of knowing when I’m worm food the people that knew me missed me and not were glad to see "that ass munch finally kick the bucket".  I’m nowhere near where I want to be but if I live my life right I never will.  When making an omelet do you not break a few eggs? 

I know my opinion is just my opinion but I don’t let my opinion stop me from listening to yours.  Who’s right and who’s wrong eventually doesn’t matter when death has the last word.  We should all just be glad that we had time to form an opinion in the first place.  Of course all of this ranting is just my opinion and I speak for no one else but me.

3/19/2009

An Eagle soars on the wind

With beating heart & beating wings

Its encounter with the wind is exhilarating and powerful

As much as it is brief and exhausting

The wind is transient and can't be held in place

But the Eagle will ride the wind till it's gone

You can try to catch a habitant of the skies

But it sees your intent and drifts out of reach

To gain its trust you must feed it with love

While kepping it at a distance

It will come to you when it's ready

If you're lucky enough to gain its trust

You must always remember that its a creature of freedom

And it will forever ride the winds

Why does the heart ache

Nobody is twisting or squeezing it

Yet it hurts all the same

I assume emotion is to blame

Yet one can't live without emotion

You'd just be empty and hollow inside

Then you'd have no heart for anyone to cherish

The issue is trying to find another heart

That's willing to beat in time with yours

And not leave your heart aching once again

I desended the cliffs of my dreams to reach the Valley of Destiny

I could not reach bottom no matter how far I went down

Nor did see the valley below through the mist of future decisions

But apprehension abated into the mist with each new sturdy foothold

But I finally became exhausted from my desent and shouted out

                                         "WHY"

The answer that echoed through the canyon was my own name

I've delved into my own eyes from a mirrors' point of view

I witnessed the skies of self doubt cast itself upon my future's twilight

I've seen my river of creativity overflow the shores of my insperation

It nurtured my fields of confidence long enough for me to delve deep

And muster the confidence that bulids naturaly from knowing oneself

Some see a mirror as a tool for viewing the horror of a monring face

For me it's a window for viewing the evolution of my bountiful future

As you bound through the field of youth

Frolick in the sun long enough to befriend your shadow

As you travel under the sun

Never neglect the fire of the inner soul

Or the illumination of the moon

For they too cast a shadow on ones life

Never fear your shadow

For then clouds of self doubt

Clutter the skies of the soul

Blocking you shadows source

The soul eventually soaks up enough

Energy and wisdom from existance

To sustain your shadow while it creeps

Into the shade for slumber

Throughtout your life remember the field

Where you and your shadow first met

For there will come a time when your shadow

Will want you to resume your youth

Where you both can frolick together again

Under the eclipse of eterinty

I'm looking out the window 

Waiting for the rain to clear

I want to feel the warmth of the sun

And gaze at the clear blue clouded sky

It seems to infinity to reach

I want to inhale the smiles and laughter

That comes with a bright new morning sun

I yearn to hear the singing of the colorful birds

Not just the sounds of rain denting the soil

                            WAIT

The rain has finally stopped

The sunlight is breaking through the clouds once again

It blankets the world in it brilliance

I'm now able to go out into the world

And enjoy the stresses of life once more

That's when I find myself missing the peace of the rain

There was A day I was away

The next day it was new

Then that day did run away

Then it went askew

The day that was next

Was rather complex

But I never knew

That the day I did play

Was just a dream

That I never knew

Birdie, Birdie, in the sky.

Why'd you do that in my eye?

I wont fret and I wont cry.

I'm just glad elephants don't fly!

I knew the truth once

It set me free

I turned to escape to my freedom

I tripped and hit my head

I woke a lifetime later

Now I can barely remember my name