CROW's blog: "for the peculiar people and then some"

dear god,
im asking that my dearest friend can find you again,that you will show her the direction with ur light. please love on her and her family. wrap your arms around her and her sons,show them your endless love and forgiveness and grace. please provide them with your guidance,security,clarity,compassion and love so they know what to do. please do it in such a way that they have no doubt about you. please shroud and protect them with you power,light and love. god, i will freely give my life as a lamb,a sacrifice like jesus did although i am not worthy or clean as he. if this is what it takes to free my dearest friend and her family that is my offer. the only thing  i ask and i know u will provide is that my family is protected when i'm gone and that one day you will guide them to you in the end. this is a scary thought for me god,but im willing to do so if that's what it takes to free my dearest friend and her family of destruction. i also will add that i wish for her and i to be one again one day,but also right in your eyes,however i understand that u may have other plans. i want to pray for her family,his family,my family,his family. for others around me and in the world who do not know you,that they may find you,that the ones who silently suffer will find you. i pray for people who need prayer,but dont know how, i pray for the people who need prayer that i dont even know. that all these people will feel your love and warmth as you wrap ur arms around them and that they will come to you. forgive me god for being a sinnner. thank you for this day and what u have done for me even though i dont deserve these loving things you provide. i am asking,stating and praying for all these things in jesus name... AMEN

i have offered my life to u before in the past my dear friend. i am now offering my life to god for you and your family.
that is the best i have to give. that's all i have left