I have searched and I have tried,
All the while I slowly died,
Inside my heart was crying out,
But no one even heard when I would shout.
All you people turn your backs,
And now the old me is back,
Raven touched my heart and soul,
He IS my soul and has control.
You all wanted me to be cold,
Now its time I finally told,
All the people who think of me,
As nothing but a monster that what I'll be.
You all who hurt me turned away,
Were all nothing but fake,
Up to this day,
You all aimed for my heart to break.
Now it has you've all won,
This is what you all wanted done,
For me to turn to hate and rage,
Only thing is you forgot my cage.
You all screwed up in making me hurt,
For now my heart lies in the dirt,
I will become all that you fear,
I no longer hold ANY one dear.
None of you thought about how I felt,
You only wanted another heart under your belt,
Here is the deal when it came to my heart,
Only one person held enough to break it all apart.
I learned from the past to never trust love,
Not until you know its a blessing from above,
That is why you people never got,
All the things from me that you sought.
There was one who held the whole thing,
Her name won't be spoken for all it does is bring,
Me anguish and pain inside my chest,
She was the one I thought would be the best.
Her eyes always shinned like a star,
Now all I have left is the deepest of scars,
She was once my one desire,
Now all I wish for is to bury the fire.
The fire of love and fire of hate,
Just want to let it all go but its to late,
You people kept pushing and now I am gone,
My kindness will not be shown for long.
This poem goes out to all those people who are haters and trifling. If you think you can get inside my heart then I welcome you to try but unless you actually KNOW my heart you won't hold a damn thing. Whats worse is people are to damn scared to actually get to know someone. Orissa my goddess shine the light of purple haze one last time. Let the Angel of Darkness touch my hand.
