Broken Soldier of Darkness's blog: "My Poetry"

In the darkness I hide my fears. In the rain I hide my tears. As the thunder rumbles through the sky, I watch as lonely souls pass by. Deep in shadows is where I hide, Consumed by all my foolish pride. To angry to love, but to caring to hate, So in the darkness, alone I wait. Deep inside my heart, it burns, For a tender touch, my body yearns. So much pain, I feel so lost, Frozen over like a winter frost. In the darkness my fears will hide. Alone in shadows I will reside. Lost and lonely, I shall cry in the rain, So no one else will feel my pain. Scarred by love, I wander alone, Never to let my feelings be known. Trapped in this prison I did create, Lost and lonely in the shadows I wait. Douglas J Griffin

I have been through the heartaches, And I have dealt with the pain. I’ve suffered each day hiding the tears, That want to fall like rain. I’ve woke up each morning wishing That things weren’t really as they are. Yet I’ve made it through as though My heart doesn’t bare a scar But each night as I lay down my head And try to get some sleep, My soul feels empty, and my heart begins to weep. So immense is the love that I carry around, So great is the hurt, yet I can not breathe a sound. Because I am a soldier, and I must stay tough, No matter how bad things get, no matter how rough. Cause I know one day it will all pay off, and my life will be worth living again, And all the pain will be gone, and I shall be whole again. Douglas J Griffin

The cold wind blows on his tear streaked face as he walked into the lonely darkness of the moon-less night. His eyes burning with the hatred and pain that has built a home in his soul to haunt his sleepless nights Lost and lonely, tired and hungry, he searches the emptiness for a sign of peace Not wanting to give up, he travels onward asking himself “when will the pain cease” He suffers alone, all this pain he keeps buried eating away at him inside Yet he still keeps on moving, takes a deep breath and swallows his pride. He has lost so much, felt more pain than he ever thought he could handle But the last of his sanity is dwindling away like a fast burning candle And yet he continues to suffer and carry this burden on his back Wandering in vast circles trying to get his life on the right track. Through the searing pain he shall continue to move on, trying to leave his past behind Cause he is a soldier of pain and he must keep his eyes forward, to see just what he can find. Douglas J. Griffin

From the Darkness I watch as the people pass by, Filled with joy and love while I sit here and cry. I am filled with so much pain, I feel lost and alone, But I am just too proud to let it be known. Just once I would like to feel as they do To be wanted and needed; to feel love that is true. But the darkness inside me has consumed my heart. For it has been ripped out so much and torn all apart. Although I seem happy, I am dead deep inside, But I am a soldier, so I just swallow my pride. I must be strong by day so everyone thinks I am all right, And I shall continue to cry myself to sleep every night. For I will be lost forever it seems, But at least I find happiness within my own dreams. Douglas J Griffin

Hold fast to hopes; dont let go of your dreams. No matter what life throws at you or how bad things may seem. Never give upon what you truly believe in, Cause the power tomoving forth comes from deep within. Though life can be a hassle; a mighty stress indeed; There is always someone there for you in your time of need. Never give in to the fears deep within your mind, Release the pain and anger; leave your worries behind. Have faith in those that love you and you really care about; And they shall do the same for you beyond a shadow of a doubt So never give up; keep your love and faith real strong. And you shall never feel alone; you will feel as if you belong. Douglas Griffin

You try everything you can, but yet to no avail. To him you do nothing at all but fail. Yet the love you feel for him seems so strong, That you believe in your mind he can do no wrong. Though the pain is intense, you just bottle it up inside. Little do you know that it is getting harder to hide. You try to deny it, you say everything is just fine, You dont want to admit that this love is out of line. As the tears well up and begin to stream down your face, You continue to think that by his side is your one true place. But this life is not one that you should have to lead, You need to find a man who will give you what you need. I say this as a friend, and you soon shall see what I say is true, And just as I always have been I will always be here for you. (C) Douglas J Griffin