elmzz's blog: "My Poems"

a more darker side of my poetry... Can you help me find peace with ease, I'm begging you please, I'm fallin deeper in this world of pain down on my knee's, my head held low flowin with suicide in my brain, the only one who can help me is the one true God, I'm prayin... As time goes by it gets harder to live with these demons, wish I could kill them an finaly earn my freedom, they linger around feeding me lies tellin me I'm doomed! "We're always gunna be here makin life miserable for you! were here till your old an when your dead your ours, go ahead keep cuttin yourself we're your scars..." I cant take them outa my life I'm too weak I need you, the only one who can help me defeat them is YOU!!!. The days get colder an theres less light I think I'm dead, tellin myself no it cant be real its all in my FUCKIN HEAD!!!, I see things that arent there I'm losin it... I look around the walls, the floor, the ceilin, SHIT!!! this is hell on earth I'm here for all of eternety, all the sins I've done in my life all finaly catch up to me, I look out the window an all I see is death... I wanna close my eyes wake up an try to FORGET!!! all this evil an fears that I've felt for so fuckin long, BUT NO! I'm stuck here cause ALL THE THINGS I'VE DONE WRONG!!! stuck in pain an fear of living with the devil, his presents I feel is so strong I start to tremble! he's coming closer to the door I can feel it, he knocks on the door I stand motionless... I WANT IT TO QUIT!!. The door opened I realize its done... I lay there motionless by my side is a gun, I see them takin me away my family THERE CRYIN!!! was this worth it living in hell AN FRYIN?!?, I'm gone theres nothing else I can do to make it right, its my fault all the things I've done wrong turned out the light... finaly i'm dead...

This poem was dedicated to my best friend, she got me into poetry Times like this you were there for me, Showed me how much you really cared for me, I dont have enough love to give back to you, I feel like I owe you a million plus two, You showed me what true love really meant, It came from the heart, Not from the head, When people left you kept me close, Didnt make me feel like I was a ghost, Talked to me about things you wanted to, Made me feel free an that was true, All these times I been hurtin inside, Your the one true person who kept me alive, I dont have much to give, But I can give you this, All for you which is no one else's This poem I dedicate to you comes from the heart, Like your friendship we were friends from the start.